Actual Freedom – The Actual Freedom Mailing List Correspondence

Richard’s Correspondence

On The Actual Freedom Mailing List

With Correspondent No. 72

August 15 2004

RESPONDENT: I’ve come across a lot of stuff over the last several months, the actual freedom stuff included in the lot. Here’s a link to something that might go along with it. I’d like to know from you actualists out there if this seems like a method that would fit in with the endorsed way of working toward actual freedom; deals with an ‘original belief’ in the brain.

RICHARD: Rather than being a method of working toward an actual freedom from the human condition Mr. Wolfgang Bernard’s ‘Original Belief© Process’ is a method of working away from it … 180 degrees in the opposite direction, in fact.

RESPONDENT: Here it is ... Read one of the top 2 articles to get the gist.

RICHARD: Okay … here is the gist of the first article, then:

• [Mr. Wolfgang Bernard]: ‘The acquisition of a (separating) identity automatically results in the alienation of our innermost being (…) questioning Original Belief means re-evaluating our identity to the very depths of our innermost being and letting go of the existential reference points which we have become used to since our early childhood in order to reconnect with where we come from: the dimension of pre-sensory perception’. (

An actual freedom from the human condition is what ensues when [quote] ‘our innermost being’ [endquote] altruistically ‘self’-immolates for the benefit of this body and that body and every body … which means that [quote] ‘the dimension of pre-sensory perception’ [endquote] also ceases to exist.

‘Twas but a massive delusion … which, incidentally, has held humankind in thralldom for millennia.

August 16 2004

RESPONDENT: I don’t really understand what motivates you to sit at the computer constructing the website and corresponding with people like me.

RICHARD: Put succinctly it is benevolence (a munificent well-wishing) ... the etymological root of the word benevolent is the Latin ‘benne velle’ (meaning ‘wish well’). And well-wishing stems from fellowship regard – like species recognise like species throughout the animal world – for we are all fellow human beings and have the capacity for what is called ‘theory of mind’.

RESPONDENT: It can’t be out of pride that you broadcast your findings – that would be far too ironic.

RICHARD: It has nothing to do with irony that it is not ‘out of pride’ … there is no trace of either pride or its companion-in-arms (humility) whatsoever in this flesh and blood body.

RESPONDENT: It can’t be out of boredom, because for the actualist the moment is too rich to allow for boredom.

RICHARD: ‘Tis impossible to ever be bored, here in this actual world, as everything is novel, fresh, always new.

RESPONDENT: I don’t suppose it’s compassionate proselytising, for compassion reeks of instinctual impulse.

RICHARD: As there is neither sorrow nor its antidotal compassion anywhere to be found in this flesh and blood body there is, correspondingly, no urge at all to proselytise.

RESPONDENT: If it’s to establish a pure school of thought that won’t be watered down in a thousand directions ... well, what’s the point, really?

RICHARD: As actualism – the direct experience that matter is not merely passive – is not a ‘school of thought’ (be it pure or not is besides the point) any speculation about such is irrelevant.

RESPONDENT: I mean, you are going to die; that legacy doesn’t have anything to do with ‘now’ …

RICHARD: If I may interject? There is only now … have you never noticed that it is never not this moment?

RESPONDENT: … [you are going to die; that legacy doesn’t have anything to do with ‘now’]; human beings will continue to be born as instinctually driven human beings …

RICHARD: If I may interject again? If, as you say, humans will continue to be born ‘instinctually driven’ (driven by such instinctual passions as fear and aggression and nurture and desire) then there is all the reason in the world for there to be a do-it-yourself method with a proven track-record, an unambiguous report of pure consciousness experiencing, clear descriptions of life here in this actual world, lucid explanations of how and why, and clarifications of misunderstandings in words and writings for their consideration … is there not?

Otherwise all there is, as an alternative to the norm, is the institutionalised insanity popularly known as ‘spiritual enlightenment’.

RESPONDENT: …[human beings will continue to be born as instinctually driven human beings]; and the majority of people couldn’t care less if they reorient themselves toward an ‘actual’ experience of the ‘now’ …

RICHARD: If I may interject yet again? As ‘the majority of people’ are not cognisant of an actual freedom from the human condition your observation has no relevance to what is actually the case.

RESPONDENT: …[the majority of people couldn’t care less if they reorient themselves toward an ‘actual’ experience of the ‘now’], because they’ve got more pressing matters to attend to.

RICHARD: If (note ‘if’) someone – anyone – has ‘more pressing matters to attend to’ than enabling the already always existing peace-on-earth, in this lifetime as this flesh and blood body, then that is their business … not mine.


RESPONDENT: (Aside: As a barista at Starbucks, I spend a stretch of 8 hours moving constantly, trying to make drinks as quickly as possible, and attending to customers to provide so-called Legendary Service. If, during that time, I ask myself how I’m experiencing this moment being alive, the answer is going to be something like, ‘Well, I had to wait half a second to put whipped cream on this frappuccino because John needed to reach in front of me to grab a lid for the drink he’s making, which made me impatient for the whole half second, but now I’m pleased to be finishing this drink off to hand to my customer in the drive-thru (is anyone going to be in my way as I walk toward the drive-thru window?) so that I can get started on the next 3 drinks I have to make ... and I really need to get those blenders to the dishwasher because the timer went off and we need to switch those out’.

RICHARD: And all the while that such a commentary is occurring is this moment of being alive – the only moment you are ever alive – being experienced happily and harmlessly (sans sorrow and malice) … as in being gay and benevolent (sans anguish and animosity), as in being blithesome and benign (sans fear and aggression), as in being carefree and considerate (sans nurture and desire), perchance?

Is all of the above occurring in the pristine purity of this actual world (where nothing ‘dirty’, so to speak, can get in)?

RESPONDENT: That sounds really long, but in the blink of an eye I am aware of precisely how I’m experiencing the moment …

RICHARD: If, as you say, you are aware of ‘precisely how’ you are experiencing this moment then you will have no difficulty at all in answering my (above) questions, eh?

RESPONDENT: … [in the blink of an eye I am aware of precisely how I’m experiencing the moment] and it has nothing to do with the human condition …

RICHARD: May I ask? What do the words ‘precisely how’ mean to you, then?

RESPONDENT: … [it has nothing to do with the human condition]; it just has to do with being efficient because if I’m not then I’m not doing a good job, and I need to do a good job in order to remain gainfully employed so that I can pay for rent and bills and groceries. So I can survive.

RICHARD: And you are doing all this in order to survive for … for what?

RESPONDENT: By the way, if you want to send me a fat cheque so that I can quit my shit job and escape from the human condition, then I’m all for it.

RICHARD: Surely you are not really suggesting that someone – anyone – in possession of ‘a fat cheque’ has escaped from the human condition … that they are totally happy and harmless (completely free from malice and sorrow) and thus living in the pristine perfection of this actual world where only purity abounds?

RESPONDENT: While I’m waiting for that cheque, however, I’ll be obliged to conform my behaviour to the expectations of a profit-seeking corporation).

RICHARD: You could, of course, pursue a career in a non-profit organisation (you would still be expected to conform your behaviour but at least you would no longer be able to take cheap shots at a business being successful enough to provide paid employment).


RESPONDENT: Don’t get side-tracked by my rant like I did, though.

RICHARD: Sure … you may find the following to be of interest, however:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘… but I have a lot of taxes to pay to the society, family, etc., which give me no time to sit and watch the rising sun ...
• [Richard]: ‘Speaking personally, the ‘I’ that was made freedom the number one priority in ‘his’ life. ‘He’ was a married man, with four children, running ‘his’ own business, with a house mortgage to pay off and a car on hire purchase ... working twelve-fourteen hour days, six-seven days a week.
In other words: normal.
And all the while the enabling of freedom took absolute precedence over all other matters and dominated ‘his’ every moment.


• [Co-Respondent]: ‘I find myself in a situation where I am raising two children and I am married.
• [Richard]: ‘So? I found myself in a situation where I was married and raising four children.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘I am doing my best to raise the kids – but how could I possibly be pleased with raising them only to be in ‘abysmal’ situation – only to live in a ‘grim and glum’ reality where the best they can do is live on the better side of misery?
• [Richard]: ‘Indeed ... being married and raising four children was one of the many incentives for the ‘me’ who was to get off ‘his’ backside and do something about the whole sorry mess.
And now, as a direct result of that altruistic action, the possibility exists for those five fellow human beings to also live fully (as is anybody else) if they so choose.

Put simply: actualism works in the market-place. Vis.:

• [Richard]: ‘The words and writings promulgated and promoted by The Actual Freedom Trust explicate the workings of an actual freedom from the human condition and a virtual freedom in practice in the market place. There is no meditating in silence or living in a monastery shut away from the world. There are no celibacy or obedience requirements. There are no dietary demands or daily regimes of exercise. No one is excluded by age or racial or gender origins. There are no prescribed books to study ... upwards of maybe two million [now maybe four million] words are available for free on The Actual Freedom Web Page. There are no courses to follow or therapies to undergo or workshops to endure. There are no fees to pay or any clique to join ... there are no rules at all.
I have no plan whatsoever ... there is no authority here in charge of a hierarchical organisation.

RESPONDENT: Tell me, what is the point of telling people about actualism?

RICHARD: Has it ever occurred to you that if nobody passed-on what they discovered we would all still be sitting in caves or bough shelters, dressed in animal skins and covered with lice, gnawing on raw brontosaurus bones?

Here are a few examples of how I have responded to such a question (you can take your pick):

• [Richard]: ‘All I have ever wished for is for the words and writings of an actual freedom from the human condition to exist in the world so that they are available long after I am dead. This is so that a third alternative to being either ‘human’ or ‘divine’ is available for anyone who comes across it, in any indeterminate future, to draw confirmation and affirmation from ... for anyone to avail themselves of if it be in accord with their own experience and/or aspirations. That is, it is a confirmation that their experience is not only valid but an affirmation in that a fellow human being has traversed this territory in an eminently satisfactory way. For nineteen years I have scoured the books ... to no avail. Now the information exists – and has taken on a life of its own – and I am well content and having so much fun.


• [Richard]: ‘What would you have me do? Keep my mouth shut? That is, I can discover something that no one else has found – as far as I have been able to ascertain – that eliminates the cause of all the wars and rapes and murders and tortures and domestic violence and child abuse and sadness and loneliness and grief and depression and suicide ... but I am not to pass this information on to my fellow human beings to do with as they will? Would it not be self-centred – selfish – to keep it to myself?
I like people ... and I care for my fellow human being. I am simply passing on my experience of life. What they do with this information is their business. There is no need in me to do this because I have no problems whatsoever. Why I do it is because other people tell me that they are suffering so I explain how I ended suffering in myself. One of the triggers that started me on this voyage into the psyche was the realisation that human beings are driven to kill their fellow human beings ... and I was one of them.
Now I am not ... and I share that what triggered me because it may trigger them.


• [Richard]: ‘I am a fellow human being sans identity (which was ‘being’ itself). As such, this flesh and blood body is apperceptively aware ... and the already always existing peace-on-earth is apparent all about. It being so perfect I wish to notify my fellow human beings of its existence ... what they do with this information is their own business.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Why would you want to notify other people of its existence?
• [Richard]: ‘Because my fellow human beings tell me that they are (a) suffering ... and (b) wanting to know the meaning of life.


• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Thank you for your time. May I know why you are on this list?
• [Richard]: ‘To participate in the facilitation of global peace-on-earth.


• [Richard]: ‘What I do is sit at my computer, when the whim takes me, and share my discovery with my fellow human beings ... being retired, and on a pension, instead of pottering around in the garden I am pottering around the internet. It is a leisure-time activity, a retirement pastime-come-hobby, as it were, and a very pleasant thing to do indeed.
I am having a lot of fun here at this keyboard.

RESPONDENT: I would think that sitting on the back porch, listening to birds, looking at the wind blow through trees, and sipping on some herbal tea would provide a much better series of moments than the ones spent haggling with so many dolts who have it 180 degrees wrong.

RICHARD: As an actual freedom from the human condition is an unconditional happiness and harmlessness no such conditions are required. Vis.:

• [Richard]: ‘… it [individual peace-on-earth] does not require anybody else’s cooperation ... mutuality and reciprocity (…) neither adds to perfection nor does their absence detract from perfection.

In short: I like my fellow human being … no matter what mischief they get up to.

August 17 2004

RESPONDENT: Let’s lay down a few givens before I pose the question:

• We human beings have biologically evolved over a great span of time.

• At an earlier time in the earth’s history, when our long-ago ancestors do not communicate verbally in any way that we would consider to be a use of ‘language,’ animal instincts are necessary for the survival of the species.

• Jumping ahead to when verbal communication is somewhat developed, these instincts are still in operation.

• Jumping even further ahead to when full-blown language function is part and parcel with what it means to be human, the animal instincts are still with us.

Okay, so all through the history of the species the brain has been evolving to allow for more and more sophisticated cognitive processes. Whatever adaptations have brought the species to its present form whereby language is essential to survival have been built up in support of the always-present animal survival instincts. That said, is it reasonable to conclude that language itself, as an auxiliary function of the more basic animal instincts, is coded in a way that the animal instincts require?

RICHARD: No … language itself is coded in a way that efficacious communication requires.

RESPONDENT: To state it another way, if language arose for survival (and why else?) …

RICHARD: Language arose to facilitate efficacious communication. Virtually all animals communicate – consciously via sound, gesture, posture, and facial expression and non-consciously by scent/flavour, colour/engorgement, emotionally/passionally, and intuitively/psychically – to some degree yet communication is not necessarily language: the main hallmarks of a communication being a language are displacement (the ability to communicate about things or situations not currently present in space and time), narration (the ability to convey a meaningful chronicle/story or account/illustration), and productivity (the communication is able to be expanded to include new signals if and when necessary) ... all of which require a connection and relation between the strung-together signals (some form of grammatical syntax).

RESPONDENT: … then doesn’t it make sense that language is always aiming back at the survival instincts?

RICHARD: No … if anything language is always aiming forward (to evermore efficacious forms of communication).

RESPONDENT: See, if this is so, and of course that is what I am proposing, then I don’t see how an ‘actualist’ could possibly use language without falling back into the good ol’ human condition.

RICHARD: Speaking personally, I use language for its efficacy in communication … for example:

• [Richard]: ‘Now that intelligence, which is the ability to think, reflect, compare, evaluate and implement considered action for beneficial reasons, has developed in the human animal those blind survival passions [such as fear and aggression and nurture and desire] are no longer necessary – in fact they have become a hindrance in today’s world – and it is only by virtue of this intelligence that blind nature’s default software package can be safely deleted (via altruistic ‘self’-immolation).
No other animal can do this.

There is no way that such efficacy in communication as that can be construed as ‘falling back’ into the human condition, eh?

August 18 2004

RESPONDENT: I don’t really understand what motivates you to sit at the computer constructing the website and corresponding with people like me.

RICHARD: Put succinctly it is benevolence (a munificent well-wishing) …


RESPONDENT: Your response is not surprising; it’s somehow reassuring. I’m sure you understand the frustration of investigating so many claims to an eyes-fully-open way of living. My favourite test is to try to expose some hypocrisy or contradiction, and if my instigating fails, then I feel the idea merits further investigation. I guess I’m holding out on too-good-to-be-true reservations. A few years ago I entered into a painful time of questioning my deeply held theistic beliefs and came out of it a convinced and intellectually contented atheist. Now, it seems, is a time to question beliefs even deeper and much more close to home. Maybe to question beliefs altogether, eh?

RICHARD: Better still ... the very action of believing itself – etymologically the word ‘believe’ is derived from the Old English ‘geliefa’ (belief, faith) from the West Saxon ‘geliefan’/‘beliefan’ (to believe, trust) from the Germanic ‘galaubjan’ (to hold dear, esteem, trust) – as beliefs are emotion-backed thoughts.

You may find the following exchange illustrative (abridged for the sake of brevity):

• [Richard]: ‘It is of no avail to quote Mr. Gotama the Sakyan’s revered wisdom, because he knew naught of these matters that I write of (…)
The same applies for the cherished teachings of Mr. Yeshua the Nazarene (…)
Just out of curiosity: You are the same person who edits/edited the Atheist Society newsletter, are you not? (…)
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Yes, I am that person. I don’t believe in the God or gods of modern day Christianity. However, if God is used as another name for Truth or the Infinite, then I believe in God, because I believe in Truth.
• [Richard]: ‘How unfortunate it is that you so easily write the words ‘I believe in Truth’. The subject of beliefs and believing is one of my favourite topics as beliefs are the bane of humankind. A person who is free has no beliefs whatsoever, so one who is endeavouring to become free will view them all with deep suspicion. Beliefs have been so instrumental in killing, maiming, torturing and otherwise causing such pain and suffering since the dawn of human history, that one wonders that they are given any credence at all these days. It behoves one to examine each and every belief – especially those that pass for ‘truths’ or ‘The Truth’ – and watch them disappear out of one’s life forever. It is so liberating to be free of beliefs – of believing itself – that I cannot recommend their elimination highly enough.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘To be more clear I could have said ‘I know Truth, and I have faith in it because of the extent and depth to which I know it’. The ‘I believe’ bit was just a shorthand way of saying the same thing.
• [Richard]: ‘Wriggling again? ‘I believe’ and ‘I know’ are such vastly disparate words that I can not buy your lame excuse of ‘just a shorthand way of saying the same thing’. And, in case you think I am being picky, you compound your error by going on with ‘I have faith in it’. Faith, belief, trust and hope are all part of the same package ... a person who actually knows would have a solid confidence and certainty born out of that knowing. And, please, do not tell me that ‘faith’ is shorthand for ‘certainty’ ... your equivocations are starting to wear thin.
• [Richard]: ‘A person who is free has no beliefs.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘They know things rather than believe them I presume. But in the case of empirical knowledge they would still have to hold beliefs of a sort because of the inherent uncertainty of empirical knowledge. For example such a person might say ‘I currently believe in such-and-such a theory because, at the moment it has the most evidence to support it’.
• [Richard]: ‘No. A free person would not say ‘I currently believe in such-and-such a theory because ...’. As any belief is an emotion-backed thought and a free person has no feelings at all – no emotions or passions whatsoever – there is no possibility of an emotional investment at all in theories which can – and do – change according to the circumstances. The etymology of the word ‘believe’ indicates that it is derived from ‘hold dear, love’ ... or thus, ‘fervently wish to be true’.
Quite a passionate word I would say.
• [Richard]: ‘Any belief is an emotion-backed thought.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘I believe that 1 + 1 = 2 (based on the definitions of ‘1’ and ‘2’), and that is not an emotion-backed thought. (…)
• [Richard]: ‘One and one always do equal two ... this is a fact. Why the need to believe something obvious? (…)
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Belief is higher than knowledge because it is possible to know something but not have the courage to believe it.
• [Richard]: ‘Thus far we have established that: 1. You are an atheist who believes in God. 2. You are a wise person who, however, has to avoid involvement with over half the population on this planet. 3. You admire Mr. Gotama the Sakyan without acknowledging the central tenets of his teaching ... and now: 4. You are a logician who values belief higher than reason!
I, for one, do not see that anything fruitful will be obtained by continuing this futile dialogue … this approximation of a genuine discussion.

RESPONDENT: Let me pose a couple possible PCE’s to see if you could tell me whether either of them seem to be right on.

1. I’m sitting on the steps of the library on my university campus. It’s the last half hour of daylight, with the rays of the sun and the shadows from trees and buildings creating a special light for the stage that I observe. In front of me, my fellow students cross the stage that is my field of vision, coming from left and right, moving on. As I watch I have no concerns that they might observe me or evaluate me or have any judgments in mind. As I look from person to person, it occurs to me that they are all very pleasant-looking. If one’s nose would normally seem ‘too big,’ for instance, now it seems to go perfectly with the rest of their features, even their gait. No one is inferior or superior – these thoughts don’t even come to mind. We are who we are and we are there, for the moment.

2. I’ve just left a little store in Bern, Switzerland. Having travelled an hour by train from Lausanne, I have finally gotten into my hands the marijuana that I have so badly wanted. My days are normally long drug-induced journeys into the subconscious, into the strange world of language and culture as I learn and speak French, and I regularly marvel at the beauty of lake Geneva and the mountains on the other side. But today, with this marijuana in my satchel, headed toward the central park where hippies and the like normally sit on the grass smoking their weed, I decide to wait. I will not drug myself, but enjoy the beautiful city that I am in, for I will not always be able to be here. Nearly as soon as I decide to wander and explore, I am struck with a sense of awe about everything. It’s like my brain is so prepped up to get stoned and to battle losing consciousness that I’m skyrocketed into a very intense consciousness. As I walk, gravity is barely an issue. Everywhere I turn my eyes there is intense beauty, but not because I say so, just because it is strange and wonderful. I look at two young women passing by on the street and wonder if they realize how wonderful everything is. They look back at me and it doesn’t seem to matter if they realize it or not because I’ll never know anyway. Nevertheless, there seems to be a brightness there in their eyes that I don’t usually notice in my fellow man.

I don’t know what it would be like to live in #2. It seems it would be overwhelming. As for #1, well it was nice to be out of the usual judging/critical/worrisome mode ... well, actually, #2 might have been especially nice because of the sort of exotic environment I was in.

RICHARD: The key-words in description No. 1 would seem to be ‘no one is inferior or superior’ (hence the lack of concern over others observing, evaluating, or judging you) and what stands out in description No. 2 is ‘how wonderful everything is’ … however the references to ‘a sense of awe’ and the lightness of being (as expressed in your ‘gravity is barely an issue’ phrasing) and ‘there is intense beauty’ may be an indication of an altered state of consciousness (ASC) rather than a pure consciousness experience (PCE).

Needless is it to add the qualifier that there actually is insufficient information for me to comment meaningfully? Besides which I am somewhat reluctant to appraise another’s description anyway (unless it be strikingly obvious just what it was) as experience has shown that when another asks whether such-and-such is a PCE or not it is, generally speaking, not … in a PCE it is startlingly apparent to the experient that is indeed a PCE. For just one example:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Yesterday I had the first really clear and unequivocal PCE since starting with this ... previously, I had had what I call ‘mini-PCE’s’. They lasted only very brief periods of time, say an hour or so, and I wasn’t really sure it was a PCE. Yesterday, however, I had *no doubt at all* about the experience, as it accorded in all details with what I have read about PCE’s (...) [emphasis added].

RESPONDENT: Thanks for your consideration.

RICHARD: You are very welcome … and it is at this stage I usually append a stock-standard disclaimer such as this: I am simply reporting my experience and it is entirely up to the other to do with it what they will ... and I stress that it is the PCE that is one’s guiding light – one’s authority or one’s teacher – and not me or my description of a PCE. The evidence of human history demonstrates that there is a distinct possibility that things can go awry wherever the human psyche is being subjectively investigated. Yet there are some notable people (or notorious people) in this field of endeavour who have rashly promised that they will take care of everything if only the person investigating will believe them and/or have faith in them and/or trust them and/or surrender to them and/or obey them ... and so on. And there are more than a few of these gullible persons currently occupying places in psychiatric wards as a direct result ... and the person who promised to ‘take care of everything’ is remarkably unforthcoming (it is counsellors and therapists and psychologists and psychiatrists who have to pick up the pieces).

I cannot save anybody at all.




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