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Please note that the text below was written by the feeling-being ‘Peter’ while ‘he’ lived in a pragmatic
(methodological), still-in-control/same-way-of-being Virtual Freedom before becoming actually free. |
Self-immolation
Immolation –– 1 Sacrificial slaughter of a victim. 2
Deliberate destruction or loss for the sake of something else. Oxford Dictionary
Peter: The other day I had a musing that concerned the common
view of the word freedom as used in spiritual circles. Freedom is seen as an event, usually termed Enlightenment, whereby one miraculously
escapes from the illusion of the real world, its problems, concerns and worries and is magically re-united with one’s Source from whence one
came from originally.
Thus ‘I’ am no longer lost, lonely and frightened for I have come Home and am
overwhelmed by feelings of Divine Love. Thus one leaves the ‘real’ world and emerges into the ‘divine’ world – an illusion based on
an illusion. The process usually undertaken is to devote oneself to living the ‘divine’ life, in preparation for a final ‘crossing’
over whereby one becomes Divine.
This is, of course, all played out in the fantasy world of passionate feelings and
has not a fig to do with the actual. Enlightenment is but a shift of identity from normal and afraid of death to Divine and believing one’s
Self to be immortal.
The path to an Actual Freedom is to devote one’s life to being the universe
experiencing itself as a flesh and blood human being, and if undertaken with scrupulous integrity, will inevitably and inexorably lead to one’s
self-immolation.
This final act will be one of self-sacrifice for it is evident from the Pure
Consciousness experience that only ‘I’ stand in the way of the perfection and purity of the universe being experienced as this flesh and
blood body called Peter. This full-blooded devotion, as in …
An end to which someone or something is devoted; a
purpose, an intent’, or ‘earnest application; zealous or exclusive attachment… Oxford Dictionary
has recently resulted in heady glimpses and experiences of the infinitude of the
physical universe. These experiences of vastness and limitless freedom offer tantalizing previews of an inevitable destiny after ‘my’
extinction and have had the unmistakable ring of the authenticity of my first ‘self’-less PCE. The other clue as to their genuineness is
the recognition of the seductive parallel of the Altered State of Consciousness whereby ‘I’ am tempted to instinctually grab to become the
experience. Thus, ‘I’ become infinite and eternal, whereas in the PCE it is startlingly clear that it is the universe that is infinite and
eternal, and what I am is this mortal flesh and blood body, well able and equipped to think and reflect and go oooh and ahhh at the perfection
and purity that is obviously apparent when ‘I’ cease to rule the roost. But that won’t happen to me – it’s but a cheap cop-out once
you have tasted the actual.
These glimpses are the direct result of this boots and all approach and send a
thrill up one’s spine, a tingling in the skull, or an involuntary wobble of the head. It’s fascinating to see that the fear that was there
in the days of thinking about the end of ‘me’, or trying to imagine the end of ‘me’, is now replaced by a physical thrill as in –
this is what I am doing, or this is what is happening. This is no esoteric explanation and has parallels in the prosaic activities that involve
fear or danger whereby, when you get to the stage of actually doing something rather than thinking or worrying about it, one is then too busy
with the doing of it that one has no time for fears or worries. And it’s not as though the experience is frantic, or too much – I am at
present doing normal things like doing a job, earning a living and reporting, as accurately as I can, on what is going on inside with ‘me’
as it happens.
Utterly down-to-earth, normal and anonymous.
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