Actual Freedom – The Actual Freedom Mailing List Correspondence

Richard’s Correspondence

On The Actual Freedom Mailing List

with Correspondent No. 54


October 17 2003

RESPONDENT No. 53: Humans have been on this planet for how long, no doubt in search of the ultimate or freedom or whatever name one chooses to give it: Do you actually think no one has succeeded before you?

RICHARD: No, I do not ‘think’ that nobody has succeeded before ... I know that nobody has.

RESPONDENT: I don’t understand why you claim to know the experience of every individual that has existed bearing in mind that not everybody that has come to ‘actual freedom’ would have necessarily ‘gone public’ anyway.

RICHARD: No such (abstract) person, or persons, as you imagine has ever existed.

RESPONDENT: Surely it would be more accurate to say that with the current evidence available to you it appears (to you) that nobody has succeeded?

RICHARD: No.

October 18 2003

RESPONDENT No. 53: Humans have been on this planet for how long, no doubt in search of the ultimate or freedom or whatever name one chooses to give it: Do you actually think no one has succeeded before you?

RICHARD: No, I do not ‘think’ that nobody has succeeded before ... I know that nobody has.

RESPONDENT: Are you making this statement from the perspective that by definition if the ‘self’ has finished then the understanding has not been acquired by a ‘person’?

RICHARD: No, it is not a matter of definition, but a matter of fact ... where are these other persons (or person) that have been, or are, already actually free from the human condition? Moreover, had you ever even known about/heard of an actual freedom from the human condition until you came upon The Actual Freedom Trust web site?

Speaking personally, I have travelled the country – and overseas – talking with many and varied peoples from many walks of life; I have been watching TV, videos, films, whatever media is available; I have been scouring the books (and journals, magazines, newspapers, and latterly, the internet) for twenty plus years now, for information on an actual freedom from the human condition, but to no avail ... and I would be delighted to hear about/meet such a person or such peoples, so as to compare notes, as it were.

Furthermore, since I went public in 1997 there have been many peoples like yourself asking this very question – my search engine shows that I have provided the ‘scouring the books’/ ‘whatever media’ response 48 times – and have asked the ‘where is this person/where are these people’ question on almost as many occasions ... for just one example at random:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Your claim that you are ‘the only one’ can not be true.
• [Richard]: ‘If you could provide names and addresses or book titles or URL’s ... or refer me to the relevant magazine articles, newspaper reports, manuscripts, pamphlets, brochures or whatever it is that you are cognisant of I would be most pleased.
I have scoured the books for twenty years ... to no avail. (Richard, List B, No. 33f, 22 August 2001).

Now, whilst I have a vested interest in the matter and have, thus, scoured the books most assiduously more than a few of my co-respondents would be only too pleased to have me be in error that the already always existing peace-on-earth has been enabled for the very first time (as strange as that may seem) ... yet in those six years nobody has ever come back to me with a single instance where somebody else is already actually free from the human condition.

Mostly there is a deafening silence (other than, perhaps, the faintly decreasing patter of scampering feet as they head for hills).

RESPONDENT: That I can (intellectually) at least understand. The fact is that in this body there is a sense of self, but in the body who will hopefully respond there is (according to Richards quotes) no self. Therefore there is a difference of understanding being expressed by the two bodies. Are you saying that there has only been one body in the history of mankind that has expressed truthfully this understanding?

RICHARD: No, it is not a matter of truthful expression, but a matter of fact ... I am saying that, up until now, there never has been a body actually free from the human condition (mainly because everyone has been looking in the wrong direction).

Given it is so patently obvious that there has never been any peace on earth thus far in human history I am wondering whether an analogy might go some way towards throwing some light on this peculiar how-can-you-know-you-are-the-first-to-discover-it phenomenon which pops up every now and again.

For example: suppose you were to announce that you had finally found the cure for cancer by discovering the root cause of the disease – hence by eliminating the cause then the effect, the cancer, is no more able to arise/exist and health abounds – and if, upon going public with this discovery, you get repeatedly told that you cannot possibly know you were the one who finally made this discovery which many, many people have sought, would you not wonder if they were all stark staring mad?

Of course not ... and why not? Because virtually everybody acknowledges that there has been no cure for cancer thus far in human history – excepting snake-oil ‘cures’ of course – and it is the discovery which would be examined for validity, and not the validity of the how-can-you-know-you-are-the-first-to-discover-it explanation (in lieu of actually examining the discovery itself for validity), which seems to be an almost mandatory requirement the announcement of the long-awaited discovery of peace-on-earth brings forth.

Is it an addled addiction to the snake-oil ‘cures’, a strait-jacketed fixation on logical impossibilities, an entrenched credulity that life is the pits and the universe sucks, which gives rise to this peculiar question ... or something else?

Something else like an ingrained dubiety (just-who-does-this-man-think-he-is-anyway) for instance?

October 20 2003

RICHARD: ... whilst I have a vested interest in the matter and have, thus, scoured the books most assiduously more than a few of my co-respondents would be only too pleased to have me be in error that the already always existing peace-on-earth has been enabled for the very first time (as strange as that may seem) ... yet in those six years nobody has ever come back to me with a single instance where somebody else is already actually free from the human condition. Mostly there is a deafening silence (other than, perhaps, the faintly decreasing patter of scampering feet as they head for hills).

RESPONDENT: The main problem here is that as I am not in ‘actual freedom’ I can only asses others’ position (i.e. are they free) by comparing it to my conceptual model of what it is (which I realise is always going to be wrong). But, at the moment, until my ‘ego’ is done with, its all I have to go on.

RICHARD: Ahh ... there is more to identity than just ‘ego’ – much, much more – as the ego-self is but the tip of the iceberg, so to speak, which the identity in toto is.

RESPONDENT: Even then, I wonder if it would be possible to be sure about someone else’s understanding. Not everyone expresses themselves in as precise terms as you appear to.

RICHARD: There are various key-words – fundamental truths as it were – that always stand out when reading about/listening to these other peoples’ understanding ... there will be some code-word for a non-material (aka timeless and spaceless and formless) source of everything, for instance, oft-times complete with some convoluted way of conveying they have realised that is who they really are (not all of them blatantly say ‘I am god’ if only because it clashes with the mandatory ‘I am humble’ dissimulation which goes hand-in-hand with self-aggrandisement) plus either an overt or covert way of imparting the notion of immortality.

Also look for any reference to the affections (the affective feelings ... usually as a state of being) such as love, compassion, beauty, bliss, and so on ... other than that there is a (not necessarily all-conclusive) list of the chief characteristics at the following URL: (Richard, Articles, 180 Degrees Opposite).

RESPONDENT: For some reason, I do believe you are telling the truth, and I find it fascinating that the universe is not allowing you to become aware of others who have made the same discovery (you’d probably say because no-one has).

RICHARD: Yep ... and, just in case there has been a misunderstanding, the universe is not god/goddess and thus neither allows nor prevents such an awareness you refer to.

In other words: I am no longer psychic.

RESPONDENT: Maybe not all people in actual freedom are that interested in comparing notes?

RICHARD: First of all an actual freedom from the human condition is not something to be ‘in’ – it is not a state (as in a state of being/state of consciousness) – as an actual freedom from the human condition is what happens when the identity is no more.

Thus, with no identity in situ, intelligence is free to operate sensibly, practically, hence only the (abstract) persons ‘in actual freedom’ you propose could have no interest in comparing notes, as it were, so as to more reliably separate out what is species specific and what is idiosyncratic ... for just one instance this flesh and blood body has zero tolerance to caffeine, alcohol, and (presumably) any other stimulant and/or mood-enhancing/ mind-altering substance, and there is no way of knowing definitively whether that is peculiar to this flesh and blood body or a characteristic of being sans the affective faculty (and thus its epiphenomenal psychic facility) in general.

RESPONDENT: Another point that comes to mind is that you have labelled a state that (I think) has been labelled a ‘nidam’ (not sure of the spelling) where the seeker has a ‘god-like’ self image, as Enlightenment, because, some people have erroneously claimed this to be true Enlightenment.

RICHARD: As far as I can make out ‘nidam’ means ‘nest’/‘family home’/‘resting place’ when translated.

RESPONDENT: So it seems to me, you have had to create a new term, actual freedom, to supersede the old ‘Enlightenment’, when really true Enlightenment and actual freedom are in fact synonymous.

RICHARD: Hmm ... it makes no difference whether it be an ‘old ‘Enlightenment’’ or a ‘true Enlightenment’ or any other brand as an actual freedom from the human condition is beyond enlightenment of any description (any of its myriad manifestations).

RESPONDENT: Anyway, you’ve probably heard all this before.

RICHARD: I have had people tell me before that I was not really enlightened, night and day, for eleven years ... but I am yet to have someone tell me I have been truly enlightened, night and day, since then (for just over a decade now). Usually they tell me I need professional help – when they are not telling me to read/listen to and absorb the wisdom of their particular enlightened being that is – or, to be really up-to-date with the very latest gem hot off the press, listen to a country and western singer whose advice, apparently, was to be who one is ... whatever that may be.

And thus does all the misery and mayhem continue unabated.

October 21 2003

RESPONDENT: Thanks for your reply. I hate to be nit-picky but I feel compelled to clear up a few points. Here are some quotes from your writings: [Richard]: ‘Actual freedom: Actual freedom is consistent: it is neither contradictory nor hypocritical; Spiritual freedom: Inconsistency, contradiction and hypocrisy are central to spiritual freedom’. [Richard]: ‘I decide to move on to my appointment ... which is actually with a cup of specially blended and drip-filtered coffee ... plus a well earned cigarette in the quietude and cosiness of my own living room’. [Richard]: ‘For just one instance this flesh and blood body has zero tolerance to caffeine, alcohol, and (presumably) any other stimulant and/or mood-enhancing/mind-altering substance, and there is no way of knowing definitively whether that is peculiar to this flesh and blood body or a characteristic of being sans the affective faculty (and thus its epiphenomenal psychic facility) in general. Thus, with no identity in situ, intelligence is free to operate sensibly, practically ...’. [endquotes]. Is it intelligent to smoke and drink coffee if the body doesn’t really like it? Have I missed something or are these quotes inconsistent?

RICHARD: I only ever use decaffeinated coffee as it is the caffeine (a chemical cousin to cocaine) which is the substance that triggers off a psychotropic episode if I were to have any ... consequently I do not consume tea, cola, chocolate, sports drinks, or anything else with caffeine in it. Also, as a similar episode occurred a couple of years ago as a result of having a dental injection to anaesthetise the jaw, I now make sure the dentist uses a procaine mixture which does not contain adrenaline, which most such mixtures do, because its effect is also psychotropic.

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RESPONDENT: Another issue comes to mind. Its the old ‘I am the body’ antidotal (if that’s actually a word) argument: If ‘you’ are the body and not the entire universe then if your arm is cut off, are ‘you’ the cut off arm as well as the living body? Then there would be 2 yous? If you answer by saying there is no identity then the next quote from the actual freedom site cannot be allowed either: [Richard]: ‘Actual freedom: One is this flesh and blood body only; Spiritual freedom: One is not the physical body. [endquote].

RICHARD: What I am is this living flesh and blood body, of course, and a severed limb is as much a dead body part as is any other body part which can be removed without causing death (a kidney for example). Furthermore this body, like any body, is shedding parts of itself continuously each and every day.

And, yes, antidotal is indeed a word:

• ‘antidotal a. pertaining to or of the nature of an antidote’. (©Oxford Dictionary).

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RESPONDENT: Reading the link you gave me, I still think that you are mixing dodgy Spiritual claims with descriptions of freedom (or actual freedom if you prefer) into one category and dismissing them all. Throwing the baby out with the bathwater, so to speak.

RICHARD: If I were to use your analogy then this is the ‘baby’ that got thrown out:

• ‘spiritual: of, pertaining to, or affecting the spirit or soul, esp. from a religious aspect; pertaining to or consisting of spirit, immaterial’. (©Oxford Dictionary).
• ‘spirit: the immaterial part of a corporeal being, esp. considered as a moral agent; the soul; this as a disembodied and separate entity esp. regarded as surviving after death; a soul; immaterial substance, as opp. to body or matter. (©Oxford Dictionary).

In other words all spiritual claims are ‘dodgy’ as there is no ‘spirit’ or ‘presence’ or ‘being’ (‘me’ at the core of ‘my’ being is ‘being’ itself) in actuality ... there are no gods or goddesses of any description in this actual world.

It is all so peaceful here.

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RESPONDENT: One more point, this time not based in mistrust: [Respondent]: ‘For some reason, I do believe you are telling the truth, and I find it fascinating that the universe is not allowing you to become aware of others who have made the same discovery (you’d probably say because no-one has)’. [Richard]: ‘Yep ... and, just in case there has been a misunderstanding, the universe is not god/goddess and thus neither allows nor prevents such an awareness you refer to’. [endquotes]. I understand that I am placing human qualities on this thing called the universe (everything) but I don’t fully understand your reply. Could you expand on this please.

RICHARD: Sure ... as the awareness you refer to is a psychic awareness it has no existence outside of the human psyche – there is no ‘spirit’ or ‘presence’ or ‘being’ in actuality – and there is no such facility operating in this flesh and blood body (when the affective faculty vanished so too did its epiphenomenal psychic facility).

Hence it is impossible to be aware of anybody else actually free from the human condition by such means.

October 22 2003

RESPONDENT: Richard, I feel like I’m reaching for a sticky bun as I do this, but I can’t resist: [Richard]: ‘What I am is this living flesh and blood body, of course, and a severed limb is as much a dead body part as is any other body part which can be removed without causing death (a kidney for example). Furthermore this body, like any body, is shedding parts of itself continuously each and every day’. [endquote]. What about nails?

RICHARD: Just like when I trim the beard/get a haircut they are body parts which can be removed without causing death.

RESPONDENT: They are dead but attached onto the body.

RICHARD: Not ‘attached onto’ – they are part and parcel of what a body is – and a body has quite a few dead parts, that are yet to be shed, at any given moment ... dead skin, for instance, or a dried-up scab on a nearly-healed wound which is about to fall off, or a drop of sweat about to drip off the nose, and so on.

RESPONDENT: Are you saying that you are this living f&bb except for the nails?

RICHARD: If I understand it correctly – as I am not a biologist I may be in error – where the nail is growing from the cuticle, thus pushing the dead portion forward and hence off the end of the finger/toe, it is not dead ... just as the hair follicle is a growing filament but the keratinised hair itself, that which can be cut off, is dead filament.

Perhaps if I were to put it this way? I do not go around gathering up flakes of skin, finger/toe nail clippings, trimmed hair/cut hair/shed hair (pubes in the drain hole), dried-up scabs, sweat, blood, pus, exhaled air, aromas, and so on and bury them reverently in a marked grave-site each and every day which says, in effect, something like this:

• ‘Here Lie Parts Of Richard/Once They Were Him Now They Are Not/May These Parts Rest In Peace’.

RESPONDENT: Are you saying that you are the head but not the kidneys or arms, but you are also the heart?

RICHARD: No, while a kidney (with both kidneys removed a body is a dead body), and an arm/arms, are part and parcel of what a living body is, that is as much what I am as any other part/parts.

RESPONDENT: You are a head and a heart etc.

RICHARD: Obviously I cannot comment on the etcetera but, yes, what I am is this living (air-breathing, blood-coursing, nerve-stimulating, cell-pulsing) body currently comprising all limbs, both kidneys, heart, lungs, liver, stomach, head, neck, shoulders, torso, abdomen ... and any other piece of living tissue, that would probably require several pages to delineate, that are all part and parcel of what I am.

RESPONDENT: Also, at what point does the food you eat, which by your definition, is not you, suddenly become you, the physical body?

RICHARD: If I understand the digestive process correctly – as I am not a biologist I may be in error – it is when the nutrients are absorbed into the blood-stream in the small intestines (and maybe, to some extent, in the stomach itself due to enzyme action).

RESPONDENT: If we are defining what ‘I am’ in these terms, then we have an equation: I = Something.

RICHARD: Easy on the ‘we’ – I am not necessarily defining what I am just in those terms – I am merely responding to your queries as they unfold.

RESPONDENT: If the ‘Something’ is constantly changing, and without any particular core or static essence, or intrinsic identity, as in the living flesh and blood body ...

RICHARD: If I may interject? Where I say I am this living flesh and blood body I am not identifying with this flesh and blood body – identifying with this flesh and blood body as an identity be it intrinsic or not – as what I am describing is what I am (what, not ‘who’) ... only an identity would translate my descriptions as describing a particular core/a static essence/an intrinsic identity (or a true identity/a real identity or whatever).

RESPONDENT: ... [If the ‘Something’ is constantly changing, and without any particular core or static essence, or intrinsic identity, as in the living flesh and blood body] then the equation should really read: I = a group of molecules within a certain proximity ... but then if we get the old microscope out we see that the molecules themselves have particular core or static essence, or intrinsic identity etc. (I’m trusting what modern science appears to be discovering, admittedly). So the new equation reads: I = something with no particular core or static essence , or intrinsic quality. Then saying I = a ‘thing’ seems to be very imprecise. The whole statement, starts to look very ambiguous.

RICHARD: Again I see in that passage (I did not want to interject again) that you are looking for/seeking to locate an intrinsic identity/ particular core/ static essence/ intrinsic quality ... even to the point of relying upon modern science (which shows that the nucleus of a cell, and not the surrounding cytoplasm, is what holds the deoxyribonucleic acid, or self-replicating material, and which is the determiner of protein synthesis).

Perhaps if I were to put it this way: being alive, being a living body, is to be a process of constant change – birthing, growing, ageing, dying – on all levels (microscopic and macroscopic and anywhere in between). Furthermore, nothing is ever static – everything, literally everything, is in constant motion, constant change; nothing, literally nothing, is ever stagnant, ever stays the same – thus all is novel, never boring, all is new, never old, all is fresh, never stale.

In short: the entire universe is a perpetuus mobilis.

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RESPONDENT: Perhaps you are making the statement as an antidote to the view held by ‘spiritualists’ that ‘I’ am a permanent ‘cloud’ or bubble containing the entire universe in it?

RICHARD: Also, but most specifically it came about experientially in late 1992 when the identity in toto vanished forever: previously I could look into a mirror, for example, and ask ‘who am I’ (and get all manner of inconclusive answers) whereas now the question itself simply made no sense at all ... and the only valid question was ‘what am I’ for the answer was patently obvious.

To wit: I am this flesh and blood body only (sans identity/affections in toto).

RESPONDENT: However the statement ‘I am not the body’ as claimed by some you would no doubt describe as ‘spiritualists’ does not necessarily mean that ‘I’ am something else either (as in a soul, or God etc).

RICHARD: Indeed not ... not all the mystics (that is, spiritualists who are self-realised) say ‘I am God’ or ‘I am That’ and so on as the deeper enlightenment goes the more apparent it becomes that ‘There is only God’ or ‘There is only That’ and so on.

Speaking personally I would say ‘There is only The Absolute’.

RESPONDENT: I don’t understand why you say ‘I am the physical body’. Why not just say ‘there is a physical body’?

RICHARD: Well, I quite often do actually – especially when some peoples ask me who the first person pronoun refers to – and this is an example (from further above) of how that would look if done all the time:

• [example only]: If this flesh and blood body may interject? When this flesh and blood body says this flesh and blood body is this living flesh and blood body this flesh and blood body is not identifying with this flesh and blood body – identifying with this flesh and blood body as an identity be it intrinsic or not – as what this flesh and blood body is describing is what this flesh and blood body is (what, not ‘who’).

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RESPONDENT: Although on reflection all the above is too vague really. Surely saying there are senses in operation is more accurate than all the other stuff. I actually know that there is seeing, hearing, tasting , feeling (as in sensations reported by the skin) etc. No-one can argue with that.

RICHARD: True. I have also, on many an occasion, described what I am as being these eyes seeing, these ears hearing, these nostrils smelling, this tongue tasting, this skin feeling, and these proprioceptors sensing ... whilst all the while there is an apperceptive awareness of all this happening.

Which brings in the subject of consciousness: I have also said that consciousness – the condition of a body being being conscious – is what happens when this body is alive, not dead, awake, not asleep, sensible, not insensible (comatose) and that all experiencing is awareness of what is happening whilst it is happening ... in that the mind, which is the human brain in action in the human skull, has this amazing capacity to be, not only aware, but aware of being aware at the same time (a simultaneity which is truly wondrous in itself).

And it is where this awareness of being aware is unmediated (apperceptive awareness) that this universe knows itself.

RESPONDENT: My point really is, is that any system that attempts to describe the actual must be flawed. How could it be otherwise?

RICHARD: What is flawed about saying that what I am (what, not, ‘who’) is this flesh and blood body only (sans identity/affections in toto)? To be putting a flesh and blood body under a microscope, in the vain attempt to find an intrinsic identity, essence, core, or quality, is to be rightfully accused of reductionism.

There is no intrinsic identity, essence, core, or quality ... what is flawed is attempting to find/locate that phantasm, that ghost in the machine, when all that needs to be done is to altruistically ‘self’-immolate for the benefit of this body and that body and every body. As there is no such ‘being’ (‘me’ at the core of ‘my’ being is ‘being’ itself) or ‘presence’ in actuality there is nothing to lose ... except ‘who’ you instinctively know, feel, and thus think, you are.

And therein lies the rub: ‘I’/‘me’ am so very real, so very, very real, that ‘I’/‘me’ am prepared to do virtually anything – virtually anything at all – than go blessedly into oblivion.

RESPONDENT: I’m still convinced that actual freedom exists (or is a possible outcome), as I was before I heard of your terminology), but ...

RICHARD: If I may step in for a moment? What manner of ‘actual freedom’ was it that you were convinced exists, or was a possible outcome, before you came across The Actual Freedom Trust web site?

I only ask because, going by all the above, it was (and maybe still is) an ‘actual freedom’ which had at its core, or essence, a qualitative identity ... an intrinsic identity, essence, core, or quality, as it were.

If so, the freedom you were/are convinced exists, or was/is a possible outcome, may be a lot of things ... but it sure ain’t actual.

RESPONDENT: ... [but] I’m not sure that I’m that convinced by the logic (or consistency) of your system of describing it all. (Although I accept that the fact it grates with me a bit is not particularly important in the overall scheme of things).

RICHARD: Okay ... this is the way I usually put it (just substitute the phrase ‘be convinced by’ for the word ‘believe’ and it will all fall into place):

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘I know a system of belief is not actual freedom; you do also ...
• [Richard]: ‘Yes ... I do not want any one to merely believe me. I stress to people how vital it is that they see for themselves. If they were so foolish as to believe me then the most they would end up in is living in a dream state and thus miss out on the actual. I do not wish this fate upon anyone ... I like my fellow human beings. What one can do is make a critical examination of all the words I advance so as to ascertain if they be intrinsically self-explanatory ... and only when they are seen to be inherently consistent with what is being spoken about, then the facts speak for themselves. Then one will have reason to remember a pure conscious experience (PCE), which all peoples I have spoken to at length have had, and thus verify by direct experience the facticity of what is written.
Then it is the PCE that is one’s lodestone or guiding light ... not me or my words. My words then offer confirmation ... and affirmation in that a fellow human being has safely walked this wide and wondrous path. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, 12d, 23 November 2000).

RESPONDENT: Many thanks for your time and I look forward to your response, if you can bear the monotony.

RICHARD: No problem ... I do not expect somebody – anybody – to grasp something as simple as what I am saying overnight, as it initially looks to be simplistic to the sophisticated mind, and thus what I am saying gets overlooked, again and again, as being childish nonsense.

Which is why I stress that, as naïveté is essential in understanding life, then sincerity is the key to unlock such comprehension.

October 25 2003

RESPONDENT: I’m still convinced that actual freedom exists (or is a possible outcome), as I was before I heard of your terminology), but ...

RICHARD: If I may step in for a moment? What manner of ‘actual freedom’ was it that you were convinced exists, or was a possible outcome, before you came across The Actual Freedom Trust web site?

RESPONDENT: I have realised that any reliance on something lasting is to set one up for a fall.

RICHARD: Let me see if I comprehend what you are saying here: statistically speaking the average life-span (in the west anyway) is approximately 75 years and the universe was here long before you were born and will be here long after you are dead ... yet you will not place any reliance upon it lasting because to do so is to set yourself up for a fall.

Have I understood you correctly?

RESPONDENT: The something includes anything that can be perceived (e.g. a nice feeling, enlightenment (in the sense you use), any state of mind, a job, a relationship. In other words as soon as I say ‘ahh ... that is what I am’ if that is an identifiable thing, standing out in anyway, then it will be impermanent and therefore I will have the rug pulled from under my feet when it dies.

RICHARD: Oh? You plan on surviving the physical death of the flesh and blood body currently going by the name ‘Respondent’ then, eh?

RESPONDENT: As I have made this mistake many times and ended up in a lot of pain, I do not wish to repeat it (I accept that if this was all fully understood, then ‘I’ would happily go into oblivion, and I agree with your comment: [Richard]: ‘and therein lies the rub: ‘I’/‘me’ am so very real, so very, very real, that ‘I’/‘me’ am prepared to do virtually anything – virtually anything at all – than go blessedly into oblivion’ [endquote].

RICHARD: Hmm ... have you not ever noticed it is never not this moment?

RESPONDENT: Therefore, the actual freedom I believed is a possibility (before encountering your site) would be thus: 1) There are no permanent things (including I/Me, identity, self, states etc). 2) Consequently there is no basis for suffering to arise. Which is why I was attracted to your site.

RICHARD: Ah, but have you read what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site with both eyes open?

RESPONDENT: It’s not that it was a new concept, it’s more that I agreed with it.

RICHARD: As it is your concept you are reading into what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site it is no wonder (a) it is not new ... and (b) you agreed with it.

RESPONDENT: I accept that if this was all fully understood, then ‘I’ would happily go into oblivion, and I agree with your comment: [Richard]: ‘and therein lies the rub: ‘I’/‘me’ am so very real, so very, very real, that ‘I’/‘me’ am prepared to do virtually anything – virtually anything at all – than go blessedly into oblivion’ [endquote].

RICHARD: I am none too sure what it is to be ‘fully understood’ by you but it certainly is not what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site

RESPONDENT: I guess I realise at some level that the crux of the issue is the above (as in points 1 and 2) and that if I had to pick out the two most important things in a ‘teaching’ it would have to be those. As your teaching ...

RICHARD: If I may interject? I do not have a ‘teaching’ ... what I do is offer a do-it-yourself method with a proven track-record, plus an unambiguous report of my experience, clear descriptions of life here in this actual world, lucid explanations of how and why, and clarifications of misunderstandings.

For an example: I always make it clear that I am a fellow human being (albeit sans identity/affections in toto) providing a report of what I have discovered and not some latter-day teacher (aka sage or seer, god-man or guru, master or messiah, saviour or saint, and so on) with yet another bodiless ‘teaching’.

What another does with the method, my report, my descriptions, my explanations, and my clarifications is their business, of course, yet it goes almost without saying, surely, that if what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site is indeed read as being yet another unliveable ‘teaching’ then it is fruitless to continue going again and again around the same old mulberry bush in e-mail after e-mail.

What I would suggest, at this stage, is to look once more at what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site ... paying particular attention to the very first words on The Actual Freedom Trust home page (immediately below the logo) before doing so.

It would save a lot of needless repetition.

October 30 2003

RESPONDENT: I’m still convinced that actual freedom exists (or is a possible outcome), as I was before I heard of your terminology), but ...

RICHARD: If I may step in for a moment? What manner of ‘actual freedom’ was it that you were convinced exists, or was a possible outcome, before you came across The Actual Freedom Trust web site?

RESPONDENT: I have realised that any reliance on something lasting is to set one up for a fall.

RICHARD: Let me see if I comprehend what you are saying here: statistically speaking the average life-span (in the west anyway) is approximately 75 years and the universe was here long before you were born and will be here long after you are dead ... yet you will not place any reliance upon it lasting because to do so is to set yourself up for a fall. Have I understood you correctly?

RESPONDENT: If there is no self/ego/soul/entity etc, when the body dies there will be no-one there to say ‘oh no, my body has disappeared’ so its not really an issue. However, when I’ve thought to myself ‘ah, I’ve got it all sorted now, I’m in a state of no more suffering’, when that finishes, there is a strong sense of ‘oh no, I’ve lost something that I had hoped would be permanent’. Also, if you rely on the body as being permanent, then if you lose a leg one day, there could be a feeling of ‘oh no, I have lost one of my treasured legs’ and lots of suffering due to that. Also, I can’t conceive of a situation where I will exist and no universe will exist. Where else is there to be except in the universe?

RICHARD: As a flesh and blood body ... nowhere else (nowhere else but here in space and now in time); as an identity ... anywhere else (anywhere else other than here in space and now in time).

*

RESPONDENT: The something includes anything that can be perceived (e.g. a nice feeling, enlightenment (in the sense you use), any state of mind, a job, a relationship. In other words as soon as I say ‘ahh ... that is what I am’ if that is an identifiable thing, standing out in anyway, then it will be impermanent and therefore I will have the rug pulled from under my feet when it dies.

RICHARD: Oh? You plan on surviving the physical death of the flesh and blood body currently going by the name ‘Respondent’ then, eh?

RESPONDENT: No, I was saying why bother identifying with the body.

RICHARD: Indeed ... that would be silly.

RESPONDENT: Why do we need to say I am the body?

RICHARD: Maybe because ‘I’ am not the body and never will be?

RESPONDENT: We don’t need to emotionally think ‘I am this body’.

RICHARD: Indeed not ... that would be silly.

RESPONDENT: It still goes around and does what it has to anyway.

RICHARD: Indeed it does.

RESPONDENT: That doesn’t mean we need to think ‘I am something else that will survive the death of the body’ either.

RICHARD: Indeed not ... although there are many who do.

*

RESPONDENT: As I have made this mistake many times and ended up in a lot of pain, I do not wish to repeat it (I accept that if this was all fully understood, then ‘I’ would happily go into oblivion, and I agree with your comment: [Richard]: ‘and therein lies the rub: ‘I’/’me’ am so very real, so very, very real, that ‘I’/’me’ am prepared to do virtually anything – virtually anything at all – than go blessedly into oblivion’ [endquote].

RICHARD: Hmm ... have you not ever noticed it is never not this moment?

RESPONDENT: Yes I have noticed this. But could you explain the relevance of your comment in the context?

RICHARD: Here is the context (edited for the sake of clarity in communication):

• [Richard]: ‘What manner of ‘actual freedom’ was it that you were convinced exists, or was a possible outcome, before you came across The Actual Freedom Trust web site?
• [Respondent]: ‘I have realised that any reliance on something lasting is to set one up for a fall. The something includes anything that can be perceived (...) if that is an identifiable thing, standing out in anyway, then it will be impermanent and therefore I will have the rug pulled from under my feet when it dies. (...) As I have made this mistake many times and ended up in a lot of pain, I do not wish to repeat it (I accept that if this was all fully understood, then ‘I’ would happily go into oblivion ...)’.

*

RICHARD: I am none too sure what it is to be ‘fully understood’ by you but it certainly is not what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site.

RESPONDENT: These are the points I am presuming have been fully understood by you (please don’t say there is no one there to understand them, or if you prefer, are a description of actual freedom):

• [Respondent]: ‘1) There are no permanent things (including I/Me, identity, self, states etc).
• [Richard] Perhaps if I were to put it this way: being alive, being a living body, is to be a process of constant change – birthing, growing, ageing, dying – on all levels (microscopic and macroscopic and anywhere in between). Furthermore, nothing is ever static – everything, literally everything, is in constant motion, constant change; nothing, literally nothing, is ever stagnant, ever stays the same – thus all is novel, never boring, all is new, never old, all is fresh, never stale. In short: the entire universe is a perpetuus mobilis.
• [Respondent]: ‘2) Consequently there is no basis for suffering to arise. I am happy and harmless. [endquotes].

Please point out where I have gone wrong in my understanding of what actual freedom is.

RICHARD: The first part of your very first sentence – ‘there are no permanent things’ – is at odds with your ‘yes I have noticed this [that it is never not this moment]’ observation and your ‘I can’t conceive of a situation where I will exist and no universe will exist’ understanding.

Not only is this universe – all time, all space, all matter (mass/energy) – a permanent (synonyms: lasting, everlasting, never-ending, unending, endless, ceaseless, continuous, interminable, incessant, perpetual, perdurable, imperishable, indestructible, enduring, undying, eternal) thing, being infinite in extent, duration, and amount (aka infinitude) it is the biggest thing of all.

Things don’t come bigger than infinitude.

*

RESPONDENT: I guess I realise at some level that the crux of the issue is the above (as in points 1 and 2) and that if I had to pick out the two most important things in a ‘teaching’ it would have to be those. As your teaching ...

RICHARD: If I may interject? I do not have a ‘teaching’ ... what I do is offer a do-it-yourself method with a proven track-record, plus an unambiguous report of my experience, clear descriptions of life here in this actual world, lucid explanations of how and why, and clarifications of misunderstandings.

RESPONDENT: So what would you describe a teaching as then?

RICHARD: That ‘teaching’ which you were referring to where you said ‘if I had to pick out the two most important things in a ‘teaching’ it would have to be those’ of course.

Which I why I say I am a fellow human being (albeit sans identity/affections in toto) providing a report of what I have discovered and not some latter-day bodiless teacher (aka sage or seer, god-man or guru, master or messiah, saviour or saint, and so on) with yet another unliveable teaching.

*

RESPONDENT: I noticed you weren’t very interested in my body/universe points.

RICHARD: No, it was not that I was not interested in your ‘body/universe points’ ... what I was not interested in was writing something – anything – which is going be read as yet another unliveable teaching from yet another bodiless teacher.

Hence I did not respond to anything at all after your ‘as your teaching ...’ introduction to what you had to say about the unambiguous report of my experience, the clear descriptions of life here in this actual world, the lucid explanations of how and why, the clarifications of misunderstandings, and the do-it-yourself method with a proven track-record I share with my fellow human beings.

RESPONDENT: Any comments?

RICHARD: Nope.

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P.S.: What I would suggest, at this stage, is to look once more at what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site ... paying particular attention to the very first words on The Actual Freedom Trust home page (immediately below the logo) before doing so.

It would save a lot of needless repetition.

November 01 2003

RESPONDENT: ... I can’t conceive of a situation where I will exist and no universe will exist. Where else is there to be except in the universe?

RICHARD: As a flesh and blood body ... nowhere else (nowhere else but here in space and now in time); as an identity ... anywhere else (anywhere else other than here in space and now in time).

RESPONDENT: SO are you saying if the thought arises (I am god, enlightened or any other false belief) that you are somehow ejected out of infinitude?

RICHARD: Nope ... I am saying the identity within, being but an illusion/delusion, can never be here in space and now in time. Viz.:

• [Richard]: ‘There is no intrinsic identity, essence, core, or quality ... what is flawed is attempting to find/locate that phantasm, that ghost in the machine, when all that needs to be done is to altruistically ‘self’-immolate for the benefit of this body and that body and every body. As there is no such ‘being’ (‘me’ at the core of ‘my’ being is ‘being’ itself) or ‘presence’ in actuality there is nothing to lose ... except ‘who’ you instinctively know, feel, and thus think, you are. And therein lies the rub: ‘I’/‘me’ am so very real, so very, very real, that ‘I’/‘me’ am prepared to do virtually anything – virtually anything at all – than go blessedly into oblivion. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 56, 22 October 2003).

In short: as an identity, one is forever locked-out of paradise (this actual world of sensate delight); as a flesh and blood body, one is never out of paradise.

RESPONDENT: I hope not, otherwise infinitude would not be infinite.

RICHARD: The only ‘infinitude’ there is, for an identity, is a metaphysical infinitude (a timeless and spaceless and formless ‘being’ or ‘presence’).

RESPONDENT: I would say that regardless of the thoughts, feelings, beliefs present, it is impossible to not be in the universe.

RICHARD: Ha ... it is impossible for an identity (being but an illusion/delusion) to ever be in actuality.

RESPONDENT: But where else is there to be, for you are always here, even if you say I am something/somewhere else.

RICHARD: An identity is never here – let alone ‘always here’ – as to be here is to be at this place in space (now at this moment in time).

*

RESPONDENT: The something includes anything that can be perceived (e.g. a nice feeling, enlightenment (in the sense you use), any state of mind, a job, a relationship. In other words as soon as I say ‘ahh ... that is what I am’ if that is an identifiable thing, standing out in anyway, then it will be impermanent and therefore I will have the rug pulled from under my feet when it dies.

RICHARD: Oh? You plan on surviving the physical death of the flesh and blood body currently going by the name ‘Respondent’ then, eh?

RESPONDENT: No, I was saying why bother identifying with the body.

RICHARD: Indeed ... that would be silly.

RESPONDENT: Why do we need to say I am the body?

RICHARD: Maybe because ‘I’ am not the body and never will be?

RESPONDENT: But you also say ‘I am this flesh and blood body only’.

RICHARD: Why do you say ‘also’ when I have never said anything about ‘identifying with the body’ (and have made this patently clear to you in a prior e-mail)? Viz.:

• [Richard]: ‘Where I say I am this living flesh and blood body I am not identifying with this flesh and blood body – identifying with this flesh and blood body as an identity be it intrinsic or not – as what I am describing is what I am (what, not ‘who’) ... only an identity would translate my descriptions as describing a particular core/a static essence/an intrinsic identity (or a true identity/a real identity or whatever). (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 56, 22 October 2003).

Furthermore, it was made quite clear what the first person pronoun refers to by replacing it with what it refers to (in the first part of the above passage):

• [Richard]: ‘Where this flesh and blood body says this flesh and blood body is this living flesh and blood body this flesh and blood body is not identifying with this flesh and blood body – identifying with this flesh and blood body as an identity be it intrinsic or not – as what this flesh and blood body is describing is what this flesh and blood body is (what, not ‘who’). (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 56, 22 October 2003).

RESPONDENT: So these two statements are contradictory. Please clarify.

RICHARD: When an identity says ‘I am the body’ it is identifying with something it is not; where a flesh and blood body says ‘I am this flesh and blood body’ it is stating a fact.

*

RESPONDENT: ... please point out where I have gone wrong in my understanding of what actual freedom is.

RICHARD: The first part of your very first sentence – ‘there are no permanent things’ – is at odds with your ‘yes I have noticed this [that it is never not this moment]’ observation and your ‘I can’t conceive of a situation where I will exist and no universe will exist’ understanding. Not only is this universe – all time, all space, all matter (mass/energy) – a permanent (synonyms: lasting, everlasting, never-ending, unending, endless, ceaseless, continuous, interminable, incessant, perpetual, perdurable, imperishable, indestructible, enduring, undying, eternal) thing, being infinite in extent, duration, and amount (aka infinitude) it is the biggest thing of all. Things don’t come bigger than infinitude.

RESPONDENT: Ok, fair enough, I can agree with that statement if the universe is seen as a ‘whole’ for want of a better word (maybe you would prefer infinitude).

RICHARD: As time and space and matter are seamless infinitude can never be divided.

RESPONDENT: However, if its divided up into discrete parts (which is what the human mind does) then none of those parts can be said to be permanent.

RICHARD: If you wish to abstractly divide up that which cannot be divided up in actuality, and then bemoan the lack of permanency (not to mention the lack of actuality), then that is your business, of course.

RESPONDENT: That was the point I was making. I think that you jumped to conclusions as to what I was saying.

RICHARD: Quite frankly I am none too sure what it is you are saying ... I do get the impression, however, that you are arguing with yourself.

RESPONDENT: Describing infinitude as a ‘thing’ is in a sense, a contradiction in terms.

RICHARD: Not at all. The word ‘thing’ is a generic word and can refer to any object/ entity whether geological/biological or manufactured/ fabricated ... whatever has a discrete, independent existence (whether it be material or immaterial as in concrete or abstract/ physical or metaphysical) and is not a relation or a function, and so on, is a thing.

It is a very wide-ranging word.

*

RESPONDENT: By the way, your method of asking how I am I experiencing this moment, and if its not good (i.e. happy and harmless), tracking the chain of events that lead you to this point (if I have understood the Actual freedom site correctly) makes 100% sense to me.

RICHARD: You do realise, I presume, that feeling good (a general sense of well-being), then feeling happy and harmless, then feeling perfect (an excellence experience), are all preliminary steps towards the penultimate experiencing of this moment of being alive ... the direct experiencing (non-affective experiencing) of a pure consciousness experience (PCE)?

The ultimate experiencing, if course, is where there is an actual freedom from the human condition.

RESPONDENT: It’s the only method that interests me ...

RICHARD: ‘Tis just as well as it is the only method on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site.

RESPONDENT: ... and I’m not even sure that its always necessary anyway, as long as you are attentive.

RICHARD: Hmm ... to say that being attentive to how one is experiencing this moment of being alive (the only moment one is ever alive) is not always necessary anyway as long as one is attentive is somewhat tautologous, non?

RESPONDENT: Only if you act ‘unconsciously’ do you need to go back to clarify things a bit.

RICHARD: Au contraire ... only if there is no pure consciousness experiencing (as in a PCE or when actually free from the human condition) is it necessary to be aware of/ attentive to how one is experiencing this moment of being alive.

RESPONDENT: Some other paths ...

RICHARD: If I may interject? There are no ‘other paths’ to an actual freedom from the human condition ... there may be others yet to be discovered, but the actualism method on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site, being the only method in human history to deliver the goods, is the only one with a proven track-record.

What I would suggest, at this stage, is to look once more at what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site ... paying particular attention to the very first words on The Actual Freedom Trust home page (immediately below the logo) before doing so.

It would save a lot of needless repetition.

November 05 2003

RESPONDENT: ... please point out where I have gone wrong in my understanding of what actual freedom is.

RICHARD: The first part of your very first sentence – ‘there are no permanent things’ – is at odds with your ‘yes I have noticed this [that it is never not this moment]’ observation and your ‘I can’t conceive of a situation where I will exist and no universe will exist’ understanding. Not only is this universe – all time, all space, all matter (mass/energy) – a permanent (synonyms: lasting, everlasting, never-ending, unending, endless, ceaseless, continuous, interminable, incessant, perpetual, perdurable, imperishable, indestructible, enduring, undying, eternal) thing, being infinite in extent, duration, and amount (aka infinitude) it is the biggest thing of all. Things don’t come bigger than infinitude.

RESPONDENT: Perhaps I should have said there are no permanent conditioned things?

RICHARD: Okay ... this is what the exchange would look like then (as an example only):

• [Respondent]: ‘I’m still convinced that actual freedom exists (or is a possible outcome), as I was before I heard of your terminology), but ...
• [Richard]: ‘If I may step in for a moment? What manner of ‘actual freedom’ was it that you were convinced exists, or was a possible outcome, before you came across The Actual Freedom Trust web site?
• [Respondent]: ‘I have realised that any reliance on some [conditioned] thing lasting is to set one up for a fall. The [conditioned] something includes anything that can be perceived (e.g. a nice feeling, enlightenment (in the sense you use), any state of mind, a job, a relationship. In other words as soon as I say ‘ahh ... that [conditioned something] is what I am’, if that is an identifiable [conditioned] thing, standing out in any way, then it will be impermanent and therefore I will have the rug pulled from under my feet when it dies. As I have made this mistake many times and ended up in a lot of pain, I do not wish to repeat it (I accept that if this was all fully understood, then ‘I’ would happily go into oblivion). Therefore, the actual freedom I believed is a possibility (before encountering your site) would be thus: 1) There are no permanent [conditioned] things (including I/Me, identity, self, states etc). 2) Consequently there is no [conditioned] basis for suffering to arise. Which is why I was attracted to your site. Its not that it [no permanent conditioned things] was a new concept, it’s more that I agreed with it. I guess I realise at some level that the crux of the issue is the above (as in points 1 and 2) and that if I had to pick out the two most important things in a ‘teaching’ it would have to be those. [end example].

Here is an excerpt from the home page on my portion of The Actual Freedom Trust web site:

• [Richard]: ‘Being a ‘self’ is because the only way into this world of people, things and events is via the human spermatozoa fertilising the human ova ... thus every human being is endowed, by blind nature, with the basic instinctual passions of fear and aggression and nurture and desire. Thus ‘I’ am the end-point of myriads of survivors passing on their genes. ‘I’ am the product of the ‘success story’ of blind nature’s fear and aggression and nurture and desire. Being born of the biologically inherited instincts genetically encoded in the germ cells of the spermatozoa and the ova, ‘I’ am – genetically – umpteen tens of thousands of years old ... ‘my’ origins are lost in the mists of pre-history. ‘I’ am so anciently old that ‘I’ may well have always existed ... carried along on the reproductive cell-line, over countless millennia, from generation to generation. And ‘I’ am thus passed on into an inconceivably open-ended and hereditably transmissible future.
In other words: ‘I’ am fear and fear is ‘me’ and ‘I’ am aggression and aggression is ‘me’ and ‘I’ am nurture and nurture is ‘me’ and ‘I’ am desire and desire is ‘me’.
The instinctual passions are the very energy source of the rudimentary animal self ... the base consciousness of ‘self’ and ‘other’ that all sentient beings have. The human animal – with its unique ability to be aware of its own death – transforms this ‘reptilian brain’ rudimentary core of ‘being’ (an animal ‘self’) into being a feeling ‘me’ (as soul in the heart) and the ‘feeler’ then infiltrates into thought to become the ‘thinker’ ... a thinking ‘I’ (as ego in the head). No other animal can do this. *That this process is aided and abetted by the human beings who were already on this planet when one was born – which is conditioning and programming and is part and parcel of the socialising process – is but the tip of the iceberg and not the main issue at all*. All the different types of conditioning are well-meant endeavours by countless peoples over countless aeons to seek to curb the instinctual passions. Now, while most people paddle around on the surface and re-arrange the conditioning to ease their lot somewhat, *some people – seeking to be free of all human conditioning – fondly imagine that by putting on a face-mask and snorkel that they have gone deep-sea diving with a scuba outfit ... deep into the human condition.
They have not ... they have gone deep only into the human conditioning
*. When they tip upon the instincts – which are both savage (fear and aggression) and tender (nurture and desire) – they grab for the tender (the ‘good’ side) and blow them up all out of proportion. If they succeed in this self-aggrandising hallucination they start talking twaddle dressed up as sagacity such as: ‘There is a good that knows no evil’ or ‘There is a love that knows no opposite’ or ‘There is a compassion that sorrow has never touched’ and so on. Which means that the ‘Enlightened Beings’ advise dissociation (wherein painful reality is transformed into a bad dream) as being the most effective means to deal with all the wars and murders and rapes and tortures and domestic violence and child abuse and sadness and loneliness and grief and depression and suicides and the such-like. Just as a traumatised victim of an horrific and terrifying event makes the experience unreal in order to cope with the ordeal, the ‘Enlightened Beings’ have desperately done precisely this thing ... during what is sometimes called ‘the dark night of the soul’.
This is because it takes nerves of steel to don such an aqua-lung and plunge deep in the stygian depths of the human psyche ... it is not for the faint of heart or the weak of knee. *This is because past the human conditioning is the human condition itself ... that which caused the conditioning in the first place*. To end this condition, the deletion of blind nature’s software package which gave rise to the rudimentary animal ‘self’ is required. This is the elimination of ‘me’ at the core of ‘being’.
The complete and utter extinction of ‘being’ is the end to all the ills of humankind. [emphasis added]. (Richard, Homepage).

As this is on the home page of my portion of The Actual Freedom Trust web site I am being clear, unambiguous, right up-front and out-in-the-open, as to what an actual freedom from the human condition is and is not ... yet what do you have to say? Viz.:

• [Respondent]: ‘I guess I realise at some level that the crux of the issue is the above (as in points 1 and 2) and that if I had to pick out the two most important things in a ‘teaching’ it would have to be those. As your teaching claims to be unique in this respect, when I know that other teachings convey this point [no permanent conditioned things/no conditioned basis for suffering to arise] too, I question the other statements you make. [endquote].

Which is why I have said, three times so far in this exchange, that what I would suggest at this stage is to look once more at what is on offer on The Actual Freedom Trust web site – paying particular attention to the very first words on The Actual Freedom Trust home page (immediately below the logo) before doing so – as it would save a lot of needless repetition.

*

RESPONDENT: With regards to your statement that it is impossible to visualize images any more (if I have understood correctly): if you close your eyes and try and do some physical action, like turn on the TV, are there no mental images there to guide you?

RICHARD: None whatsoever ... the imaginative/intuitive faculty vanished when the affections ceased to exist (and thus their epiphenomenal psychic facility). I literally cannot imagine, visualise, envisage, envision, picture, intuit, see in the mind’s eye, feel-out, dream up, fall into a reverie, or in any other way, shape or manner imaginatively conceptualise anything whatsoever.

I could not form a mental image of something if my life depended upon it ... whereas in earlier years ‘I’ could get a picture in ‘my’ mind’s eye of ‘my’ absent father, mother, wife, children and so on ... or the painting ‘I’ was going to paint, or the coffee-table ‘I’ was going to build, or the route ‘I’ was going to take by car or whatever.

If I were to close the eyes now, and try to visualise, all what happens is the same velvety-smooth darkness – as looking into the infinite and eternal and perpetual universe at night – which has been the case for all these years now. I simply cannot have images ... when I recall childhood, adolescence, early adulthood, being middle-aged or yesterday it is as if it were a documentary on television but with the picture turned off (words only) or like reading a book of somebody’s life.

There is only the direct experiencing of actuality.

RESPONDENT: If not, how do you guess where the buttons are?

RICHARD: By touch and memory (the on-off button on the TV remote control is the top-right button).

RESPONDENT: (I suppose I am asking whether conceptualising is actual or just a feature of the identity).

RICHARD: I can intellectually conceptualise (formulate, configure, theorise, and so on) – as in 2+2=4, for instance, or ‘if this, then that’, for another – as it is the intuitive/imaginative conceptualising (visualising, idealising, romanticising, fantasising, and so on), which is a feature of identity.

*

RESPONDENT: When you say that the (apparent) identity disappears, does the personality/characteristics of the f&b body change at all?

RICHARD: The following exchange may be helpful in this regard:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Surely there are patterns associated with your reflectivity. You tend to reflect on things in a certain way, and I have a different tendency. Does not that tendency define your identity? Or do you have no such tendency?
• [Richard]: ‘I certainly have that tendency ... and I revel in it. These are attributes, traits, quirks, idiosyncrasies, features, peculiarities, flavours, mannerisms, gestures and so on. They are not the ‘thing-in-itself’. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 12a, 28 January 1999).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Your awareness remains associated with your body whilst mine remains associated with mine. As the circumstances change around you surely there is something that remains the same, that defines you as you, and as separate to me. It is that claim of yours to have no identity I was wanting to chip away at, and am wanting to again.
• [Richard]: ‘It is the flesh and blood body that remains the same (with due allowance for the aging process) and defines Richard as Richard and you as you. The flesh and blood body’s characteristics (attributes, traits, quirks, idiosyncrasies, features, peculiarities, flavours, mannerisms, gestures and so on) tend to stay the same ... but characteristics do not necessarily have to define an identity as being a ‘thing-in-itself’. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 12a. 28 January 1999).

RESPONDENT: That is, if the f&b b (can I refer to this as a person for now?) liked telling jokes, would the person still like this after the identity has died?

RICHARD: I like to joke and I laugh a lot – there is so much that is irrepressibly humorous about life itself – and what has changed is that the joking and laughing is not malicious (as in spiteful, for instance) and/or sorrowful (as in lugubrious, for example).

‘Tis a remarkable change, by the way, and not some minor thing.

*

RESPONDENT: Do you think it is possible to successfully apply oneself to the path of actual freedom and still hold reservations as to whether or not Richard was the first identity to ever self-immolate?

RICHARD: First and foremost: the issue of whether it was Richard that was the first, or not, is a distraction away from the main issue – that an entirely new way to live life on this verdant and azure planet is now available – and it is this way of living which is worthy of further investigation, and thus validation, and not the way Richard knows it is entirely new (which validation requires following in Richard’s footsteps).

I am aware that I have re-posted the following before yet as the question is particularly perspicacious it is worth re-posting again:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Do I understand correctly from your mail, that your being unique in this is not what is important: that you merely wanted to stress with it that you bring something that is entirely new?
• [Richard]: ‘Yes. The on-going experiencing of the already always existing peace-on-earth is entirely new to human experience ... everybody I have spoken to at length has temporarily experienced such perfection, in what is called a pure consciousness experience (PCE), but nobody has been able to provide a clear, clean and pure report as an on-going actuality. Usually the PCE is interpreted and/or translated according to selfish personal desires, and by corresponding cultural conditioning, as a variation of the many types of an Altered State Of Consciousness (ASC) which perpetuates the ‘self’ as the ‘Self’ (by whatever name) in some spurious after-life ‘Peace That Passeth All Understanding’. And thus all the wars and murders and rapes and tortures and domestic violence and child abuse and sadness and loneliness and grief and depression and suicides have gone on forever and a day.
Now the opportunity exists for an eventual global peace-on-earth: with 6.0 billion outbreaks of individual peace-on-earth no police force would be needed anywhere on earth; no locks on the doors, no bars on the windows. Gaols, judges and juries would become a thing of the dreadful past ... terror would stalk its prey no more. People would live together in peace and harmony, happiness and delight.
But do not hold your breath waiting. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 15, 22 December 2000).

It is somewhat difficult to report to one’s fellow human beings that one has discovered something entirely new to human experience without saying that it is ... um ... something entirely new to human experience.

November 07 2003

RICHARD: The instinctual passions [such as fear and aggression and nurture and desire] are the very energy source of the rudimentary animal self ... the base consciousness of ‘self’ and ‘other’ that all sentient beings have. The human animal – with its unique ability to be aware of its own death – transforms this ‘reptilian brain’ rudimentary core of ‘being’ (an animal ‘self’) into being a feeling ‘me’ (as soul in the heart) and the ‘feeler’ then infiltrates into thought to become the ‘thinker’ ... a thinking ‘I’ (as ego in the head). No other animal can do this. (...) Past the human conditioning is the human condition itself ... that which caused the conditioning in the first place. To end this condition, the deletion of blind nature’s software package which gave rise to the rudimentary animal ‘self’ is required. This is the elimination of ‘me’ at the core of ‘being’. The complete and utter extinction of ‘being’ is the end to all the ills of humankind.

RESPONDENT: ‘Being’ to me implies an ongoing, static, state that never ends. If you say that it can become extinct, then it must be impermanent. Therefore it falls under the category of a conditioned (impermanent) thing?

RICHARD: Yes ... and an illusory/ delusory thing at that.

RESPONDENT: The extract you sent in the previous dialogue is dealing with erasing the human ‘self’ or ‘being’ but do you not agree that the two issues (permanency and ‘self’/identity) are linked?

RICHARD: Not as an actuality, no (the issue of permanency is linked to the issue of the properties of the universe).

RESPONDENT: Is not the sense of being a human being tied up with the belief in permanence, i.e. the belief that ‘I’ am at the root of everything (as a permanent entity)?

RICHARD: As the (sensorial) ‘sense of being a human being’ is tied up with impermanence – as in mortality – you can only be referring to the intuitive ‘sense of being a human being’ (as in immortality) ... the affective feeling of being a ‘presence’ inside the body (aka ‘being’ itself), in other words, as a psychological/psychic entity (a metaphysical identity) rather than the sensitive feeling of being this body as a sensate/material entity (a physical creature).

Hence spiritualism has it that, whilst the ego-self is impermanent, the soul-self is permanent and that ego-death, while the body is a living body, is essential to reveal who one really is – an immortal spirit-being – whereas actualism has that identity-death in toto (extinction) is essential to make apparent what one actually is (a mortal human being) ... and therein lies the rub: as a spirit-being one is so very real, so very, very real at times, one is prepared to do virtually anything – virtually anything at all – than go blessedly into oblivion so that what is actually permanent can become apparent.

This infinite and eternal and perpetual universe is not conditioned by any definition of the word (especially No. 3):

• ‘conditioned: (from the noun) 1. having a (specified) disposition or temperament; in a particular condition or state; 2 placed in certain conditions; circumstanced, situated; (from the verb) 3. subject to conditions or limitations; dependent on a condition; not absolute or infinite; 4. brought into a desired state; with the balance of certain qualities adjusted; 5. taught to accept certain habits, attitudes, standards, etc.; accustomed to. (© Oxford Dictionary).

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RESPONDENT: With regards to your statement that it is impossible to visualize images any more (if I have understood correctly): if you close your eyes and try and do some physical action, like turn on the TV, are there no mental images there to guide you?

RICHARD: None whatsoever ... the imaginative/intuitive faculty vanished when the affections ceased to exist (and thus their epiphenomenal psychic facility). I literally cannot imagine, visualise, envisage, envision, picture, intuit, see in the mind’s eye, feel-out, dream up, fall into a reverie, or in any other way, shape or manner imaginatively conceptualise anything whatsoever. I could not form a mental image of something if my life depended upon it ... whereas in earlier years ‘I’ could get a picture in ‘my’ mind’s eye of ‘my’ absent father, mother, wife, children and so on ... or the painting ‘I’ was going to paint, or the coffee-table ‘I’ was going to build, or the route ‘I’ was going to take by car or whatever. If I were to close the eyes now, and try to visualise, all what happens is the same velvety-smooth darkness – as looking into the infinite and eternal and perpetual universe at night – which has been the case for all these years now. I simply cannot have images ... when I recall childhood, adolescence, early adulthood, being middle-aged or yesterday it is as if it were a documentary on television but with the picture turned off (words only) or like reading a book of somebody’s life. There is only the direct experiencing of actuality.

RESPONDENT: If not, how do you guess where the buttons are?

RICHARD: By touch and memory (the on-off button on the TV remote control is the top-right button).

RESPONDENT: I don’t understand. Surely the idea of top-right must relate to some kind of visual image?

RICHARD: No, the memory of ‘top-right’ relates to (prior) visual sight – it refers to the actuality of visually seeing that is where it is located – and in day-to-day practice I very rarely look at the buttons on TV remote control anyway as through constant usage it has become automatic to go by touch (the mute button is top-left and the channel selector is bottom-right).

RESPONDENT: What is memory if not partly mental images (along with words, sounds etc)?

RICHARD: For me memory is intellectual – the referent words only – with neither images nor sounds.

RESPONDENT: If I say to you get me an egg, there must be some kind of visual image of an egg to compare it to the real thing?

RICHARD: No, there is sufficient familiarity with eggs to intellectually know what one is by now.

RESPONDENT: How else can you link the word egg to the actual object?

RICHARD: If no actual egg be present ... intellectually.

RESPONDENT: What is the exact mental/physical process involved for one with no identity?

RICHARD: If the egg be present ... the direct (unmediated) perception; if the egg be absent ... the intellectual memory.

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RESPONDENT: By the way, I do read the actual freedom web site almost every day, including the introduction, its just taking a while to grasp what you are saying.

RICHARD: Okay ... if it can be comprehended that, just as it is essential for there to be an ego-death to become enlightened, it is essential there be soul-death (the extinction of ‘being’ itself) to go beyond enlightenment it will all fall into place.

RESPONDENT: I can’t just erase my current understanding of life.

RICHARD: I do not expect somebody – anybody – to grasp what I am saying overnight, as it were, as the implications and ramifications are enormous.

RESPONDENT: I have to somehow make sense of what you are saying through my own experience.

RICHARD: The only experience through which it all makes sense is, of course, your own pure consciousness experience (PCE) otherwise it reads/sounds like an altered state of consciousness (ASC) ... and any ASC is still a state of being no matter how sublime/profound/glorious it may be.

RESPONDENT: I also know I have not dived down to the depths of the human condition, I’m just choosing my swimming trunks.

RICHARD: Ha ... nudity is not optional (to be here, just here right now, is to be more naked than taking all your clothes off in the main street as to be actual is to be totally exposed).

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RICHARD: Where I say I am this living flesh and blood body I am not identifying with this flesh and blood body – identifying with this flesh and blood body as an identity be it intrinsic or not – as what I am describing is what I am (what, not ‘who’) ... only an identity would translate my descriptions as describing a particular core/a static essence/an intrinsic identity (or a true identity/a real identity or whatever). (...) Perhaps if I were to put it this way: being alive, being a living body, is to be a process of constant change – birthing, growing, ageing, dying – on all levels (microscopic and macroscopic and anywhere in between). Furthermore, nothing is ever static – everything, literally everything, is in constant motion, constant change; nothing, literally nothing, is ever stagnant, ever stays the same – thus all is novel, never boring, all is new, never old, all is fresh, never stale. In short: the entire universe is a perpetuus mobilis.

RESPONDENT: What is wrong with saying: there are no permanent conditioned things?

RICHARD: Because nowhere have I ever come across a ‘teaching’ which says that ‘being’ itself (aka God, Truth, That, Nirvana, Suchness, Isness, and so on), or ‘presence’, is an impermanent conditioned thing ... on the contrary, all the sages, seers, god-men/god-women, gurus, masters, messiahs, saviours, saints, and so on, over the centuries have been saying that it is a permanent unconditioned thing (and, more often than not, the only permanent unconditioned thing into the bargain).

This is what you had said (the modified version) in response to my initial query:

• ‘The actual freedom I believed is a possibility (before encountering your site) would be thus: 1) There are no permanent [conditioned] things (including I/Me, identity, self, states etc). 2) Consequently there is no [conditioned] basis for suffering to arise. Which is why I was attracted to your site. Its not that it [no permanent conditioned things] was a new concept, it’s more that I agreed with it. I guess I realise at some level that the crux of the issue is the above (as in points 1 and 2) and that if I had to pick out the two most important things in a ‘teaching’ it would have to be those’.

RESPONDENT: Is this statement at odds with actuality/your above statement?

RICHARD: What is at odds with actuality/my above statement is that any ‘teaching’ has ever said that ... spirituality is all about the permanence (aka immortality) and unconditionality (aka absoluteness) of ‘being’ itself.

RESPONDENT: How about: all conditioned things are impermanent.

RICHARD: If your phraseology ‘all conditioned things’ includes ‘being’ itself (aka God, Truth, That, Nirvana, Suchness, Isness, and so on), or ‘presence’ (quite often capitalised as Being or Presence upon self-realisation) then there is no problem with putting it that way ... this is one of the ways I have summarised it before (a modified version):

1. Where does any ‘teaching’ say that there is no such thing as reincarnation (aka rebirth), that there is only this one mortal life currently being lived, and that physical death is the end, finish?
2. Where does any ‘teaching’ say that there is no such thing as god, truth (a non-material sacredness by whatever name), and that there is nothing other than this physical universe?
3. Where does any ‘teaching’ say that there is no such thing as immortality (a non-material deathlessness by whatever name) and that only this physical universe is infinite, eternal, and perpetual?
4. Where does any ‘teaching’ say that the answer to all the misery and mayhem lies here on earth (aka in the world), right now in time (aka this moment), and not away from the world (aka a spiritual dimension) sans time altogether (aka timeless)?

And I have summarised it this way because eastern spirituality is fundamentally all about avoiding rebirth – and attaining a (specious) post-mortem reward – and is not about peace on earth as a flesh and blood body (sans identity/affections in toto) ... just as western spirituality is not about peace on earth as a flesh and blood body either (it is fundamentally all about avoiding a (specious) post-mortem punishment and attaining a (specious) post-mortem reward).

In short: peace-on-earth is nowhere to be found in spiritualism – nor in materialism for that matter – which is one of the reasons why I say actualism is the third alternative to both.

The main reason why is, of course, in regards to the meaning of life.

November 27 2003

RICHARD: ... in short: the entire universe is a perpetuus mobilis.

RESPONDENT: What is wrong with saying: there are no permanent conditioned things?

RICHARD: Because nowhere have I ever come across a ‘teaching’ which says that ‘being’ itself (aka God, Truth, That, Nirvana, Suchness, Isness, and so on), or ‘presence’, is an impermanent conditioned thing ... on the contrary, all the sages, seers, god-men/god-women, gurus, masters, messiahs, saviours, saints, and so on, over the centuries have been saying that it is a permanent unconditioned thing (and, more often than not, the only permanent unconditioned thing into the bargain).

RESPONDENT: Is this statement at odds with actuality/your above statement?

RICHARD: What is at odds with actuality/my above statement is that any ‘teaching’ has ever said that ... spirituality is all about the permanence (aka immortality) and unconditionality (aka absoluteness) of ‘being’ itself.

RESPONDENT: How about: all conditioned things are impermanent.

RICHARD: If your phraseology ‘all conditioned things’ includes ‘being’ itself (aka God, Truth, That, Nirvana, Suchness, Isness, and so on), or ‘presence’ (quite often capitalised as Being or Presence upon self-realisation) then there is no problem with putting it that way ...

RESPONDENT: Thanks. I like putting it that way.

RICHARD: Are you aware this implies you like putting it that the unconditioned permanence all the sages, seers, god-men/god-women, gurus, masters, messiahs, saviours, saints, and so on, over the centuries have found is, in fact, a conditioned impermanent thing ... when all the while the only permanent (aka immortal) unconditioned (aka absolute) thing has been this physical universe they erroneously took to be an impermanent conditioned thing?

If so, do you now comprehend why I say that an actual freedom from the human condition is 180 degrees in the opposite direction?

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RESPONDENT: What is memory if not partly mental images (along with words, sounds etc)?

RICHARD: For me memory is intellectual – the referent words only – with neither images nor sounds.

RESPONDENT: If I say to you get me an egg, there must be some kind of visual image of an egg to compare it to the real thing?

RICHARD: No, there is sufficient familiarity with eggs to intellectually know what one is by now.

RESPONDENT: How else can you link the word egg to the actual object?

RICHARD: If no actual egg be present ... intellectually.

RESPONDENT: What is the exact mental/physical process involved for one with no identity?

RICHARD: If the egg be present ... the direct (unmediated) perception; if the egg be absent ... the intellectual memory.

RESPONDENT: Sorry for being a bit slow here, but when you say intellectual memory what do you mean?

RICHARD: I mean the cerebral, or mental, recall of that which is not present.

RESPONDENT: It seems to me there are only three options:

1) The ‘sound’ of the word egg.
2) The ‘visual’ image of the word egg.
3) The ‘visual’ image of an actual egg.

I can’t see any other way of remembering an object. Presumably when you read the word egg, you know what I am talking about. How can you know if not through the visual memory of an actual egg?

RICHARD: It may help to recall something without a tangible shape or form such as an egg has – maybe helium for instance or some other colourless and odourless gaseous substance – and you might get an inkling of what an intellectual memory is.

RESPONDENT: Are you distinguishing between visual memory and active imagination?

RICHARD: No ... visual memory *is* active imagination.

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RESPONDENT: One other point: If you were in the situation of looking after little kids again, I’m presuming that you would have no difficulty shouting at them if they are being naughty.

RICHARD: I can speak clearly and firmly, lowering the tone and raising the pitch as appropriate, when interacting with any of my fellow human beings – and not just with the younger ones – who continue to not comply with the legal laws or not observe the social protocols even after being reminded of the sensibility of doing so ... if that is what you mean.

RESPONDENT: As this would be seen to many as anger, how would you differentiate?

RICHARD: Hmm ... it would appear that what I described (above) is not what you mean.

RESPONDENT: Could you smack their bottoms if necessary?

RICHARD: There are times when physical force/restraint is necessary with any of my fellow human beings – and not just with the younger ones – as the human condition is endemic per favour blind nature’s survival package of instinctual passions (such as fear and aggression and nurture and desire) ... no one is exempt.

RESPONDENT: Are you saying that its possible to be stern and forceful without being angry?

RICHARD: Indeed so ... to actually be harmless (be free of malice) means one does not have to pretend to be harmless (be a pacifist).

RESPONDENT: (My experience says yes – unless I am deluding myself).

RICHARD: You are not deluding yourself ... and, not all that surprisingly, interacting sans anger is far more effective anyway (especially in the long-term).

RESPONDENT: Or would you not ever shout at the kids?

RICHARD: Where the voice of reason has no effect (when a fellow human being is in the grip of a passion for example) or where the situation calls for instant effect (when a fellow human being is in danger for instance) speaking clearly and firmly, lowering the tone and raising the pitch as appropriate, is the only sensible course of action with any of my fellow human beings ... and not just with the younger ones.

RESPONDENT: (If you say never shout at the kids, I will find this more unbelievable than the belief in a supreme being!! ;).

RICHARD: Ha ... if one cannot stay one step ahead of recalcitrant children one does not deserve the title ‘mature adult’.

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RESPONDENT: I’m getting the point, that one has to ‘tidy up ones house’ first before self-immolating.

RICHARD: Provided it be not an excuse for continued procrastination (as in ‘I’m not ready yet’) it is entirely sensible to become as happy and harmless as is humanly possible before the magical event, which renders all such house-cleaning null and void, actually happens.

RESPONDENT: I think I’ve been trying to do it without really becoming a happy ‘being’ first.

RICHARD: As the general thrust of your e-mails has been that the ‘self’-immolation in toto, as described on The Actual Freedom Trust web site, is not ‘a new concept’ it would appear that whatever it is you have been trying to do it has had nothing to do with what actualism is on about.

RESPONDENT: I have (big) issues to sort out first before I will be able to make the leap.

RICHARD: As there is no ‘leap’ – an actual freedom is not a spiritual freedom – it would indeed appear so.

RESPONDENT: I guess there are no shortcuts.

RICHARD: What I find telling – and this is a general observation – is just how much peoples object to being happy and harmless ... the vast majority of the correspondence in the archives is, in fact, a cutting indictment on the human condition itself.

Do you realise – and this is a personal observation – you have just said, in effect, that you guess you will have to become a happy ‘being’ before you can become actually free from the human condition (as if were there a way to be thus free without having to do so you would not)?

Whereas it is actually such a delight to finally be able to be happy (and harmless) ... and a relief.

March 02 2004

RESPONDENT: I have a question. I’m sure its probably been dealt with already, but what is the actualist answer to the old riddle: If a twig snaps in a wood where no one is present is there a sound?

RICHARD: As this question is only about aural perception the following can also be asked:

• cutaneous perception: if there is no one present to feel the snapped twig is there texture to the break?
• olfactory perception: if there is no one present to smell the snapped twig is there aroma around the break?
• proprioceptive perception: if there is no one present to ambulate around the snapped twig is the break three dimensional?
• gustatory perception: if there is no one present to taste the snapped twig is there flavour in the break?
• ocular perception: if there is no one present to see the snapped twig is there a break in the first place?
• cognitive perception: if there is no one present to be a witness is there a twig at all (or is there a wood for that matter)?

Upon closer inspection ‘the old riddle’ is somewhat trite, eh?

March 18 2004

RESPONDENT: I have a question. I’m sure its probably been dealt with already, but what is the actualist answer to the old riddle: If a twig snaps in a wood where no one is present is there a sound?

RICHARD: As this question is only about aural perception the following can also be asked: • cutaneous perception: if there is no one present to feel the snapped twig is there texture to the break? • olfactory perception: if there is no one present to smell the snapped twig is there aroma around the break? • proprioceptive perception: if there is no one present to ambulate around the snapped twig is the break three dimensional? • gustatory perception: if there is no one present to taste the snapped twig is there flavour in the break? • ocular perception: if there is no one present to see the snapped twig is there a break in the first place? • cognitive perception: if there is no one present to be a witness is there a twig at all (or is there a wood for that matter)? Upon closer inspection ‘the old riddle’ is somewhat trite, eh?

RESPONDENT: I thought that the point of the riddle is to show that without sense organs there can be no sensual information arising.

RICHARD: Or, to put that another way, the point of the riddle is to (supposedly) show that without the observer there is no the observed ... in a word: solipsism.

RESPONDENT: If there is no experience of the twig, how can it be proved that the twig exists in actuality?

RICHARD: Simple: point out to the solipsist that they are asking somebody who (supposedly) does not exist to prove that something else which (supposedly) does not exist does exist.

In other words, the very asking of another (a tacit acknowledgement of their existence) for proof is the very proof ... as is that referral to the something else an implicit acknowledgement of its existence as well.

As I said: upon closer inspection ‘the old riddle’ is somewhat trite.

RESPONDENT: If the twig was not in the visual field then the only way it could be referred to would be by imagination only.

RICHARD: We have been down this path before:

• [Respondent]: ‘What is memory if not partly mental images (along with words, sounds etc)?
• [Richard]: ‘For me memory is intellectual – the referent words only – with neither images nor sounds.
• [Respondent]: ‘If I say to you get me an egg, there must be some kind of visual image of an egg to compare it to the real thing?
• [Richard]: ‘No, there is sufficient familiarity with eggs to intellectually know what one is by now.
• [Respondent]: ‘How else can you link the word egg to the actual object?
• [Richard]: ‘If no actual egg be present ... intellectually.
• [Respondent]: ‘What is the exact mental/ physical process involved for one with no identity?
• [Richard]: ‘If the egg be present ... the direct (unmediated) perception; if the egg be absent ... the intellectual memory.
• [Respondent]: ‘Sorry for being a bit slow here, but when you say intellectual memory what do you mean?
• [Richard]: ‘I mean the cerebral, or mental, recall of that which is not present.
• [Respondent]: ‘It seems to me there are only three options: 1) The ‘sound’ of the word egg. 2) The ‘visual’ image of the word egg. 3) The ‘visual’ image of an actual egg. I can’t see any other way of remembering an object. Presumably when you read the word egg, you know what I am talking about. How can you know if not through the visual memory of an actual egg?
• [Richard]: ‘It may help to recall something without a tangible shape or form such as an egg has – maybe helium for instance or some other colourless and odourless gaseous substance – and you might get an inkling of what an intellectual memory is.
• [Respondent]: ‘Are you distinguishing between visual memory and active imagination?
• [Richard]: ‘No ... visual memory *is* active imagination. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 56, 27 November 2003).

RESPONDENT: Surely the actual world relies on sense organs to exist, otherwise how can it be experienced?

RICHARD: The physical world exists irregardless of any sentient being existing ... it is flesh and blood bodies which rely upon sense organs to experience physicality.

RESPONDENT: Surely it has no way of experiencing itself other than through sense organs?

RICHARD: Not ‘through’ ... as: as this flesh and blood body only one is this infinite and eternal and perpetual universe experiencing itself apperceptively ... as such it is stunningly aware of its own infinitude.

And this is truly wonderful.

RESPONDENT: What is left if there is no sense data?

RICHARD: Ha ... the hoary ‘brain in a vat’ so beloved of the epistemologists, perchance?

RESPONDENT: Please clarify.

RICHARD: Sure ... this topic has come up before:

• [Richard]: ‘This universe is already here ... and it is always here now.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Well, it can equally well be argued the other way around: that there never was anything, and what is ‘always here now’ is just an illusion, a myth.
• [Richard]: ‘Yet it cannot ‘equally well be argued the other way around’ that ‘what is ‘always here now’ is just an illusion, a myth’ (although there are those who try to argue this). There is a simple experiment that will demonstrate the actualness of physicality in a way that a thousand words would not:

1. Place a large spring-clip upon your nose.
2. Place a large piece of sticking plaster over your mouth.
3. Wait five minutes.

Now, as you rip the plaster from your mouth and gulp in that oh-so-sweet and patently actual air, I ask you: do you still say ‘it can equally well be argued the other way around’ that ‘what is ‘always here now’ is just an illusion, a myth’ ?

• Exit: abstract argumentation.
• Enter: facts and actuality.

Seeing the fact will set you free to live in the actuality which is already here ... and which is always here now. (Richard, List B, No. 33d, 23 May 2001).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘... the eternal question still remains: who or what is the entity that gulps the air?
• [Richard]: ‘Yet ‘the eternal question’ does not remain at all as it is the flesh and blood body that gulps the air (a non-physical ‘entity’ does not breathe physical air). If ‘the eternal question still remains’ for you it means that you chose for the ‘abstract argumentation’ option (further above) rather than the intimate actuality of the sensate feeling of the air moving into and through the mouth; into and through the trachea ... and thence to an inflating of the lungs and a swelling of the chest.
‘Tis your choice.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘If there is no one who gulps the air (and thus experiences it), is there any air at all?
• [Richard]: ‘As there is a flesh and blood body gulping the air this is a pointless conceptual question and the inevitable result of the ‘abstract argumentation’ choice made. If (note ‘if’) there was no body, here in space and time as form, this question would not be happening ... and this conversation would be a non-event. And, as there is a body, here in space and time as form, this question (and this conversation) is happening ... as is the concomitant perception.
It is a nonsense question – it may initially look valid logically – but it is nonsense nevertheless.
Howsoever, I am sure that you will now be motivated enough to traipse out into the forest and set-up an experiment (next to the tree that does not fall unless you are there to observe it fall), with bell jars, hoses, vacuum pumps, gauges and ancillary paraphernalia and then (whilst watching out for snakes masquerading as ropes whilst traipsing through the forest) come back the next day and make the appropriate measurements of the air in the jars.
Either that or look-up ‘self-centred’ in the dictionary. (Richard, List B, No. 33d, 25 May 2001).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘I don’t think any conclusive answer to the above question has ever been found, or, could ever be found.
• [Richard]: ‘I just did (and I copy-pasted most parts of it from previous e-mails to this Mailing List).
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Hence my comment that argued another way, ‘here and now’ is an illusion.
• [Richard]: ‘You cannot argue it rationally, though ... because if you argue that ‘all actuality ... is actualised through a perceiving mind’ (meaning that the actuality of ‘here and now’ cannot be reliably or accurately ascertained by a perceiving mind as objectively existing independent of that perceiving mind) then the definitive statement ‘‘here and now’ is an illusion’ is but a perception ‘actualised’ by that very-same perceiving mind which cannot reliably or accurately ascertain objectivity.
You are presenting a doubly-illuded argument, in other words.
Furthermore, you then present the argument to a body, which that perceiving mind definitively states is ‘an illusion’ ... presumably for rational feedback. Which feedback (be it affirmative to your argument or negative to your argument) must, of the necessity your argument dictates, be non-objective whichever way it goes ... which is further evidence of the irrational nature of your ‘it can equally well be argued the other way around’ comment. (Richard, List B, No. 33d, 25 May 2001).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Once again, what are space, time, and form sans perception?
• [Richard]: ‘May I suggest? Find someone who has a relative or a friend in a coma – a person in a coma is a person ‘sans perception’ – and go and visit them ... and you will notice that space and time and form are still happening irregardless of their perception of it all. Or, go and be with someone in ‘Samadhi’ or ‘Dhyana’ or some similar cataleptic trance state and, though they will swear that time and space and form do not exist when they come out of their exalted state, you will notice that time and space and form was happening all the while. Or, be with somebody on their death-bed ... and afterwards you will notice that time and space and form keep on keeping on. Or, find someone with expertise in ancient rocks and fossils ... palaeontology shows that time and space and form existed long before human beings and their perception appeared on the scene.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Time, space, and form, happen to /you/ in all the cases that you mention. Hence, a /you/ is necessary for time, space, and form to happen.
• [Richard]: ‘Surely you are not suggesting that before you were born (or at least before humans per se) nothing existed? No planet earth? No satellite moon? No central sun? No ‘Milky Way’ galaxy? No universe? No Time? No Space? No form? Nothing at all?
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘It is a tribute to the human faculties that manufacture space, time, and form that we are able to ask a question like the one you do.
• [Richard]: ‘Goodness me ... and yet it is Richard who is sometimes said to be arrogant (when I describe how superior living in the actual world is to living in the ‘real world’). Is it not obvious that ‘it is a tribute’ to the universe (limitless time and space and form) which ‘manufactures’ the human faculties that such questions are able to be asked?
When you look-up ‘self-centred’ in the dictionary ... check out ‘anthropocentric’ as well. (Richard, List B, No. 33d, 25 May 2001).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘You are trapped in a universe of your own belief.
• [Richard]: ‘Since when has seeing the actual – observing the obvious – become a belief? This physical universe exists in its own right and does not require belief from me to bring it into being or sustain its existence. It was here before I was born and will be here after I die. Just how does that constitute it being a product of my – or anyone’s – belief system?
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘One belief is that there is something outside this momentary flashing (of sensations) labelled ‘universe’ that continues to exist.
• [Richard]: ‘No belief is required ... not being a Krishnamurtiite I have not crippled my native intelligence by having to scorn memory. Memory is a record of a series of yesterdays, that were packed full of ‘momentary flashing (of sensations)’, going all the way back to one’s earliest memory. Before that, one can refer to the reports given by one’s parents (for example) back to one’s birth. Unless one is paranoid – thinking that there is a conspiracy by one’s parents to deceive one – then it is obvious that this universe has been here for all those years. Unless one wishes to be solipsistic and believe that this universe came into being when one was born (complete with 5.8 billion people whose sole aim in life is to convince you that it was here before you were born when it was not) then it is equally obvious that this universe has been here throughout human history.
As for before human history ... unless one is anthropocentric (and egocentric people often are) it is obvious that this universe does not require verification from human beings in order to exist. Palaeontology evidences this. Before that? Unless one is a religious cosmogonist (believing in a ‘Creation’) or a scientific cosmogonist (believing in a ‘Big Bang’) then it is obvious that this universe has always been here. As it has always been here ... it always will be here.
Observation renders belief redundant. (Richard, List B, No. 22b, 21 August 1998).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Find someone who has a relative or a friend in a coma – a person in a coma is a person ‘sans perception’ – and go and visit them ... and you will notice that your perception of physical reality is still happening irregardless of their perception of it all. Or, go and be with someone in ‘Samadhi’ or ‘Dhyana’ and, though they will swear that time and space and form do not exist, you will notice that your perception of physical reality keeps happening all the while. Or, be with somebody on their death-bed ... and afterwards you will notice that your perception of physical reality keeps on keeping on.
• [Richard]: ‘You do seem to have missed the point of doing what I suggested. As their perception of physical reality is non-existent in all three instances – yet physical reality keeps on keeping on irregardless – then the same applies to my perception of physical reality in similar circumstances ... ergo: I am not necessary for the planet earth to exist; I am not necessary for the satellite moon to exist; I am not necessary for the central sun to exist; I am not necessary for the ‘Milky Way’ galaxy to exist; I am not necessary for the universe to exist. I am not necessary for time and space and form to exist. (Richard, List B, No. 12j, 30 May 2001).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘We are initiated at a young age into our culture’s description of reality.
• [Richard]: ‘Indeed ... any society, being a grouping of ‘selves’, corroborates, supports and enhances the newest genetically inherited ‘self’s intuitive description (the blind initiating the blind).
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘The cultural view is that on-going physical objects ‘exist’.
• [Richard]: ‘Well now ... they do ‘get it right’ some of the time, you know.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘That view is perhaps essential to survival and functioning.
• [Richard]: ‘Why ‘perhaps’ essential? As the physical-world does exist it is indeed essential. Just stop eating the ‘perhaps’ essential physical food for 5+ months and see what happens; just stop drinking the ‘perhaps’ essential physical water for 5+ days and see what happens; just stop breathing the ‘perhaps’ essential physical air for 5+ minutes and see what happens; just stop the ‘perhaps’ essential physical heart beating for 5+ seconds and see what happens. (Richard, List B, No. 12j, 30 May 2001).

And:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘To see the world or so-called physical reality ...
• [Richard]: ‘If I may interject? Just stop waiting for a gap to occur in the stream of ‘so-called physical’ cars, trucks, buses and trams on a highway before crossing and see what happens ... you will intimately experience what ‘so-called physical’ time (and motion), what ‘so-called physical’ space (and distance) and what ‘so-called physical’ form (and function) are in a practical and very demonstrable way.
One experience is worth a thousand words.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘... [to see the world] as immeasurable energy means that the stranglehold that the cultural view has over our perception has loosened its grip.
• [Richard]: ‘Ha ... which culture? Because the eastern cultures, generally speaking, inculcate ‘the cultural view’ that physical reality is ‘immeasurable energy’ (God or Truth by whatever name) from the moment of parturition ... and their ‘cultural view’ is insidiously spreading through the western cultures (inasmuch as it is being force-fed to the newest recruits to the culture with the mother’s milk, as it were).
I kid you not ... I live in an area where such is now the norm.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘It doesn’t mean that a tree only falls in the forest if we see it fall and all that nonsense.
• [Richard]: ‘You may very well be surprised at the number of otherwise intelligent human beings who have either baldly trotted out that psittacism to me over the past twenty-odd years ... or ...
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘It means that in absolute energetic terms, there is no tree apart from consciousness.
• [Richard]: ‘... or who have adroitly trotted out a sophisticated version of that psittacism to me over the past twenty-odd years.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘That is not to say that a particular brain’s thought process creates the tree.
• [Richard]: ‘Let me guess ... it is the universal mind (by whatever name) that creates the tree? (Richard, List B, No. 12j, 30 May 2001).

And:

• [Richard]: ‘This is how this thread started: [Co-Respondent]: ‘... identity itself is an illusion’. [endquote]. From that simple starting point you have expanded this illusion theme into including everything as being an illusion – other than Brahma – which leaves me with but one question: Why do you write e-mails to your illusions?
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Oh, that is simple: it is all His Leela! I do not write these e-mails – He makes me write them.
• [Richard]: ‘I am only too happy to re-phrase my question: why does Brahma make you write e-mails to your illusions?
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Brahma doesn’t make anything happen. It is neither caused nor causes anything. That which is beyond cause is Brahma. Hence a correct statement ought to be: ‘e-mails happen’.
• [Richard]: ‘If I may point out? I am not asking how the e-mails happen but why they happen ... why as in what purpose does it serve to communicate with your illusions when you already know they are your illusions? Or, to put that another way, is it because your illusions do not realise they are your illusions that you write to them to tell them that they are your illusions?
In other words: have your illusions taken on a life of their own, as it were, and are denying that you are their creator? (Richard, List B, No. 30j, 24 October 2002).

There is more ... but maybe this will do for now?

RESPONDENT: P.S. Even though you get a lot of stick on this mailing list, I thank you for sticking around.

RICHARD: Oh, I have been the target of all manner of criticism, abuse, blame, censure, reproach, reproof, condemnation for many years now ... and all because I report that it is possible to be both happy *and* harmless (neither sorrowful *nor* malicious ever again) for the remainder of one’s life.

And, more significantly, that the meaning of life being can be apparent 24/7.

March 19 2004

RESPONDENT: Richard, would you agree that without consciousness it is impossible for the experience of me typing these letters to exist.

RICHARD: Ha ... without consciousness it is impossible to be typing those letters in the first place.

RESPONDENT: If the answer to the above is yes, then without consciousness it is also impossible to verify the existence of the universe.

RICHARD: Hmm ... without consciousness it is impossible to conduct any directed activity.

RESPONDENT: Questions like ‘will the universe exist when I die’ can only exist when there is consciousness present.

RICHARD: Any question can only exist when there is consciousness ‘present’ (more on this usage below).

RESPONDENT: Any comments?

RICHARD: Yes ... the word ‘consciousness’ refers to a flesh and blood body being conscious (the suffix ‘-ness’ forms a noun expressing a state or condition) and connotes being alive, not dead, being awake, not asleep, and being conscious, not unconscious (comatose).

All sentient beings are conscious ... and sentience means consciousness. Viz.:

• ‘sentience: the condition or quality of being sentient; consciousness, susceptibility to sensation’. (Oxford Dictionary).

A sentient being, and all animals are sentient (having the power or function of sensation), is a living organism capable of sensory perception (a virus, for example, is an organism without sentience) which means that sensory perception is what consciousness is at its most basic ... perception means consciousness (aka awareness). Viz.:

• ‘perception: the state of being or process of becoming aware or conscious of a thing, spec. through any of the senses; the faculty of perceiving; an ability to perceive; [synonyms: (...) awareness, consciousness]. ~ (Oxford Dictionary).

In popular usage, however, the word ‘consciousness’ can also mean the (illusory) identity which is being conscious ... whereas the word ‘awareness’ does not usually carry that connotation.

To put that another way: while the word ‘conscious’ can mean the same as what the word ‘aware’ means the word ‘consciousness’ can also mean something other that what the word ‘awareness’ means ... it can mean the (supposedly) immortal entity which makes a sentient being alive and not dead (as in the phrase ‘consciousness has left the body’ to signify physical death).

Which is another way of saying consciousness is no longer ‘present’ in the body.

RESPONDENT: Do these statements mean I am a solipsist?

RICHARD: Given that a solipsist maintains that ‘only the self really exists or can be known’ (Oxford Dictionary) surely you can work that out for yourself?

Just as a matter of interest: I experienced a period of what I then called ‘extreme subjectivity’ whilst living in the Himalayas in 1984 (I did not know of the term ‘solipsist’ until 1993 when I read an edifying account by Mr. Leo Tolstoy, who went through a period of solipsism, and later wrote at length about his experience) and it is a ghastly state to be in ... those who intellectually entertain the notion, as in a philosophy for example, have obviously never personally experienced the reality of being solipsistic.

Put briefly: nothing can be verified (absolutely nothing) as everything (absolutely everything) is ‘my’ creation: to ask another, for instance, whether they independently exist is an exercise in futility as anything they might say is ‘my’ creation also ... or to seek psychiatric help, for another example, is to have one of ‘my’ creations prescribe yet another one of ‘my’ creations.

Which is why I tend to be forthright with those who dabble (as in the quotes in my previous e-mail).

March 26 2004

RESPONDENT: ... when you say intellectual memory what do you mean?

RICHARD: I mean the cerebral, or mental, recall of that which is not present.

RESPONDENT: It seems to me there are only three options: 1) The ‘sound’ of the word egg. 2) The ‘visual’ image of the word egg. 3) The ‘visual’ image of an actual egg. I can’t see any other way of remembering an object. Presumably when you read the word egg, you know what I am talking about. How can you know if not through the visual memory of an actual egg?

RICHARD: It may help to recall something without a tangible shape or form such as an egg has – maybe helium for instance or some other colourless and odourless gaseous substance – and you might get an inkling of what an intellectual memory is.

RESPONDENT: Are you distinguishing between visual memory and active imagination?

RICHARD: No ... visual memory *is* active imagination.

RESPONDENT: So just for the record, if I asked you to draw an egg, are you saying you would be unable to do so, as it would require visual memory?

RICHARD: No, I am not saying that ... the following may throw some more light upon the subject:

• [Richard]: ‘To be actually free of the human condition is to be sans ‘I’ as ego (the ‘thinker’) and ‘me’ as soul (the ‘feeler’) which is to be this flesh and blood body being apperceptively aware. And where there is no ‘I’ as ego and ‘me’ as soul (no psyche) there is no imaginative/intuitive faculty ... hence no ‘this other ‘mind’’ metaphysical projection. It is all so simple here in this actual world.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘Why do you say that there is no imaginative faculty?
• [Richard]: ‘Because it is my on-going experience, night and day since 1992, that the entire imaginative/intuitive faculty has vanished. I literally cannot visualise, form images, envision, ‘see in my mind’s eye’, envisage, picture, intuit, feel, fall into a reverie, daydream or in any way, shape or form imaginatively access anything other than directly apprehending what is happening just here right now. I could not form a mental picture of something ‘other’ if my life depended upon it. I literally cannot make images ... whereas in my earlier years ‘I’ could get a picture in ‘my mind’s eye’ of ‘my’ absent mother, wife, children and so on ... or the painting ‘I’ was going to paint, or the coffee-table ‘I’ was going to build, or the route ‘I’ was going to take in ‘my’ car or whatever. If I were to close my eyes and ‘visualise’ now, what happens is the same velvety-smooth darkness – as looking into the infinite and eternal space of the universe at night – that has been the case for all these years now. I cannot visualise, imagine, conceptualise ... when I recall my childhood, my young manhood, my middle ages or yesterday it is as if it were a documentary on television but with the picture turned off (words only) or like reading a book of someone else’s life.
It is the affective content that makes memories ‘real’ – the entire psyche itself – and it is the self-same process that makes imagining a past or a future ‘real’ that makes an ‘otherness’ even more ‘real’ than everyday reality.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘To ‘imagine’ is a sane faculty of this multi-media-brain-mind.
• [Richard]: ‘I have not been sane for many, many years. It is pertinent to acknowledge that sane people killed 160,000,000 of their sane fellow human beings in wars this century alone ... and then there is all the murders and rapes and tortures and domestic violence and child abuse and sadness and loneliness and grief and depression and suicides to further give pause to reconsider whether sanity is such a desirable state of being as sane peoples make out.
Sanity is personally insalubrious and socially reprehensible.
• [Co-Respondent]: ‘I can imagine a cow right now – with or without an I or ‘me’.
• [Richard]: ‘I cannot ... I can intellectually know what a cow is like in that I can draw a reasonable facsimile; yet as I am drawing I cannot visualise what the finished drawing will be like ... it becomes apparent as the drawing progresses. (Richard, List B, No. 24c, 12 November 1999).

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RESPONDENT: And one more question: Are you saying that there are no other levels of physicality than this one, or could there be other ‘densities’ that could be tuned into?

RICHARD: To turn from the macroscopic – intuiting/ conceptualising realities outside the universe – to the microscopic (intuiting/conceptualising realities inside the universe) is the same movement away from the actual ... only in a different direction.

Of course it is understandable that, from a real-world perspective, another reality be proposed because there is another dimension, as it were, to that real-world reality – the actual world of the senses, as evidenced in a pure consciousness experience (PCE), which all people I have spoken to at length on the matter have recalled experiencing – but unless a PCE is occurring as you write then where you say ‘than this one’ you can only be referring to a real-world physicality and not the actual one.

RESPONDENT: That is levels of existence with finer materiality than this?

RICHARD: Nothing is either ‘fine’ or ‘gross’ here in this actual world ... all is pristine, pure.

RESPONDENT: Just as if you heat up something solid, it melts, and then eventually turns into a gas. Or do you put this in the ‘spiritual mumbo jumbo’ category?

RICHARD: Yep.

RESPONDENT: (I’m not talking about gods etc.).

RICHARD: For the sake of clarification I will take this opportunity to point out that when I say ‘god’ I am not necessarily only referring to the popular usage of the word (such as the god of a church, a temple, a mosque, a synagogue, and so on) ... I am referring to any non-material otherness (other than physical) by whatever name.

In other words: that which is timeless and spaceless and formless.


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