Is there any difference between a realisation and an actualisation?
[The ‘sensational’ event did not remove the survival drives?] Or if it did,
somehow a vestigial self/ identity remained? Presumably, in spite of the ‘aggrandising’, it took you 11 years to get what
was happening sufficiently to do something about it.
It does matter what we leave for the future generations because we are doing it
for our own future ‘selves’. By ‘The Voyage of a Life-Time’ do you mean enjoying this life as it is here
and now as nobody in particular?
I keep day-dreaming/ thinking and get into fears and anxieties ...
my mind slips away from a simple state (awareness of the moment) to some complex state (memories, feelings, thoughts,
recollections) and I get confused.
What about when I find out what happened to end feeling
good and I see that it is silly to keep worrying about it yet that doesn’t stop the worrying and I am not back to feeling good?
I am not able to see the silliness of feeling bad ...
I see now that ‘faking care’ isn’t what you mean by ‘feeling caring’.
Reflecting on the many instances I’ve seen where Richard says that only a handful of the hundreds of visitors to the site
actually ‘get it’ – I’m beginning to understand why. It takes persistence and stubborn will not to give up – no matter
what. In other words, the 180 degree metaphor is no understatement – and it’s a bit like standing on one’s head until it ‘clicks
in’.
While in the flight I happened to remember Richard’s ‘looking between the stars instead of
looking at the stars and realizing infinity’ (paraphrasing here) and I wondered how could there be infinity when the line joining the stars is
finite until I happened to look behind that line and away (along the line of sight itself) and whoa it sucked for me a second or two into an
infinite like abyss – but again the logical mind comes back to say ‘nah dont commit to infinity’.. but in all was a fun exercise !
