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What is a feeling-fed ‘self’? A ‘self’
is not something ‘you’ have ... being an identity in whatever way, shape or form is what ‘you’ are and is an inevitable result of
being born.
Thus any blame is pointless – and worse –
it creates resentment. Being an identity is because the only way into this world of people, things and events is via the human spermatozoa
fertilizing the human ova ... thus every human being is endowed, by blind nature, with the basic instinctual passions of fear and aggression
and nurture and desire.
These passions are the very energy source of
the rudimentary animal self ... the base consciousness of ‘self’ and ‘other’ that all sentient beings have.
The human animal – with its unique ability to
think and reflect upon its own death – transforms this ‘reptilian brain’ rudimentary ‘self’ into being a feeling ‘me’ (as soul
in the heart) and from this core of ‘being’ the ‘feeler’ then infiltrates into thought to become the ‘thinker’ ... a thinking
‘I’ (as ego in the head). No other animal can do this.
This process is aided and abetted by the human
beings who were already on this planet when one was born ... which is conditioning and programming. It is part and parcel of the socializing
process. Thus ‘dissolving the ego’ is not sufficient ... there is a ‘me’ lurking in the heart to take over the wheel. We are each
instilled with an instinctual animal ‘self’ that is the very core of the self-survival program. Although this instinctual survival
program is genetically-encoded to ensure the survival of the species and not the individual, in humans it is ‘self’-centred, as it is in
apes, our nearest genetic cousins.
Our instinctual-rudimentary ‘self’ is based firmly on the surge of chemicals arising from the
instinctual programming in the primitive brain. This ‘self’ is our instinctual ‘being’ at our very animal core – thoughtless and
instinctual-emotional. Further, this primitive ‘self’ is made more complex in human beings by our ability to think and reflect and, as
such, we have a more elaborated ‘self’ consisting of ‘who’ we think ourselves to be and ‘who’ we feel ourselves to be.
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