on Apperception vs. Choiceless Awareness
Attentiveness and Sensuousness and Apperceptiveness
‘The Professor and I’
Review on Awareness
‘In Each Moment’ by P. Lowe
Discussions about Apperception vs.
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between Apperception and Choiceless Awareness?
just another Identification
Freedom is Pretence or Imagination
a Belief System/a Theory
vs. Choiceless Awareness
Apperception: The mind’s perception of itself Oxford Dictionary
Richard: Being ‘alive’ is to be paying attention
– exclusive attention – to this moment in time and this place in space. This attention becomes fascination … and fascination leads to
reflective contemplation. Then – and only then – apperception can occur.
Apperceptive awareness can be evoked by paying exclusive attention to being fully
alive right now. This moment is your only moment of being alive … one is never alive at any other time than now. And, wherever you are, one
is always here … even if you start walking over to ‘there’, along the way to ‘there’ you are always here … and when you arrive
‘there’, it too is here. Thus attention becomes a fascination with the fact that one is always here … and it is already now. Fascination
leads to reflective contemplation. As one is already here, and it is always now … then one has arrived before one starts. The potent
combination of attention, fascination, reflection and contemplation produces apperception, which happens when the mind becomes aware of itself.
Apperception is an awareness of consciousness. It is not ‘I’ being aware of
‘me’ being conscious; it is the mind’s awareness of itself. Apperception – a way of seeing that is arrived at by reflective and
fascinating contemplative thought – is when ‘I’ cease thinking and thinking takes place of its own accord … and ‘me’ disappears
along with all the feelings. Such a mind, being free of the thinker and the feeler – ‘I’ as ego and ‘me’ as soul – is capable of
immense clarity and purity ... as a sensate body only, one is automatically benevolent and benign.
It is really important to understand about the soul ... getting into feelings like
this – ‘perfect’ feelings – leaves one in imminent danger of the seductive snare of Love and Beauty, and, conveniently ignoring their
opposites, becoming enlightened, or at least illuminated. ‘Me’ – that sense of ‘being’ that I call the soul – sugar coats itself
with Love and Compassion and Beauty and Truth and swans along in a state of Blissful Euphoria. Thus one then goes off into some mystical State
of Being in some metaphysical world and misses out on the clean and clear perfection of this actual world.
It is very, very difficult to get out of the enlightened state and go ‘beyond
it’ into this actual world of the senses. I found out for myself how difficult it was ... I lived enlightenment for eleven years … the same
as the ‘Tried and True’ teachings that all the Saints and the Sages, the Messiahs and the Masters, the Avatars and the Saviours and the
Gurus and the God-men have been touting as being the cure-all for the ill of humankind for millennia. I found these solutions to be the
‘Tried and Failed’. I found that, in an altered state of consciousness such as spiritual enlightenment which results when the ego
dissolves, the sense of identity does a quantum leap from the head to the heart.
One realizes oneself as being ‘Me’ at the core of ‘my’ being ... one
becomes ‘pure being’. The resultant oceanic state of unitary perception – called by some choiceless awareness – creates the delusion
that the illusion of self is ended. There is an on-going experience of oneness and wholeness which expresses itself as: ‘I am everything and
everything is Me’. Those who go all the way into this delusion realise that ‘I am The Self’ or ‘I am The Buddha’ or ‘I am God’.
It is possible to extinguish this identity – this ‘Me’ which is the second
‘I’ of Mr. Ventkataraman Aiyer (aka Ramana) fame – and go beyond enlightenment into an actual freedom.
One then lives in this actual world of sensual delight that under-pins both the
illusory grim and glum ‘everyday reality’ experienced by 5.8 billion people and the delusory loving and compassionate ‘Greater Reality’
experienced by 0.0000001 of the population. Then one is both happy and harmless automatically. With apperception operating more or less
continuously, ‘I’ find it harder and harder to maintain credibility. ‘I’ am increasingly seen as the usurper, an alien entity
inhabiting this body and taking on an identity of its own. Mercilessly exposed in the bright light of awareness – apperception casts no
shadows – ‘I’ can no longer find ‘my’ position tenable. ‘I’ can only live in obscuration, where ‘I’ lurk about, creating all
sorts of mischief. ‘My’ time is speedily coming to an end, ‘I’ can barely maintain ‘myself’ any longer.
The day finally dawns where the definitive moment of being here, right now, conclusively arrives;
something irrevocable takes place and every thing and every body and every event is different, somehow, although the same physically; something
immutable occurs and every thing and every body and every event is all-of-a-sudden undeniably actual, in and of itself, as a fact; something
irreversible happens and an immaculate perfection and a pristine purity permeates every thing and every body and every event; something has
changed forever, although it is as if nothing has happened, except that the entire world is a magical fairytale-like playground full of
incredible gladness and a delight which is never-ending. ‘My’ demise was as fictitious as ‘my’ apparent presence. I have always been
here, I realise, ‘I’ only imagined that ‘I’ existed. It was all an emotional play in a fertile imagination.