[Richard]: “Lastly, the actualism method segues into what has become known as the actualism process when the actualism method has become so automatic, via habituation, that one is walking about in a state of wide-eyed wonder (naiveté) simply marvelling at being alive (sensuosity) and being amazed/ delighted that all this – the world about/the universe itself – is occurring in the first place; the actualism process is when it becomes more and more difficult to distinguish the difference between one doing it (doing this business called being alive) and it happening of its own accord; when one becomes the experiencing of being alive/of it all occurring of its own accord one is then out-from-control (not ‘out of control’ as in wayward) and a different-way-of-being has ensued.

It all becomes rather magical (‘magical’ as in prestidigitation) after that.” (Private Correspondence with Claudiu, 29 February 2012)

This ongoing actualism process has been described on this forum in excellent details by Claudiu (and lots of follow-ups) and recently by Kuba.

Ok James, pull up the anchor and enjoy being on your way once more.

Cheers Vineeto 

JAMES: I had an experience of leaving humanity which seemed to be like fear without the feeling.

JAMES: I woke up and there was an emptiness like nowhere to turn. It seemed like fear but there was no feeling.

It seems you have been pushing yourself to leaving humanity because you have ended up in an ASC/state of dissociation. “Emptiness” is the wrong direction if you want to become actually free from the human condition.

I suggest getting back to feeling good … and read the freshly-published report from Dona and Alan, which talks a lot about the difference between forcefully attempting self-immolation and giving oneself permission to allow it to happen.

Cheers Vineeto

JAMES: My question is: Can I permanently disappear the ‘I’ and the ‘me’?

RICHARD: Speaking personally, I did not ‘permanently disappear the ‘I’ and the ‘me’’ ... it was the identity that did all the work. Who you think and feel and instinctively ‘know’ yourself to be has a job to do: When ‘I’ willingly self-immolate – psychologically and psychically – then ‘I’ am making the most noble sacrifice that ‘I’ can make for oneself and all humankind ... for ‘I’ am what ‘I’ hold most dear. It is ‘my’ moment of glory. It is ‘my’ crowning achievement ... it makes ‘my’ petty life all worth while. It is not an event to be missed ... to physically die without having experienced what it is like to become dead is such a waste of a life.

There is an intrinsic trait common to all sentient beings: self-sacrifice. (Richard, List B, James, 24 September 1999)

I saw a few weeks ago that you have already made cremation arrangements – what have you got to lose?

Nothing to lose but a belief ... and so much to gain!

Cheers Vineeto

September 22, 2024

JAMES: In reviewing this thread I see that it is the identity itself (‘I’) that makes the self – sacrifice for oneself and all humankind :

RICHARD: Speaking personally, I did not ‘permanently disappear the ‘I’ and the ‘me’’ … it was the identity that did all the work. Who you think and feel and instinctively ‘know’ yourself to be has a job to do: When ‘I’ willingly self-immolate – psychologically and psychically – then ‘I’ am making the most noble sacrifice that ‘I’ can make for oneself and all humankind … for ‘I’ am what ‘I’ hold most dear. It is ‘my’ moment of glory. It is ‘my’ crowning achievement … it makes ‘my’ petty life all worth while. It is not an event to be missed … to physically die without having experienced what it is like to become dead is such a waste of a life.

There is an intrinsic trait common to all sentient beings: self-sacrifice. (Richard, List B, James, 24 September 1999)

JAMES: So ‘I’ am not only doing this for myself but for this body, that body and everybody.

Is it the guardian that is stopping me?

*

JAMES: I have decided to end myself with myself. I understand now. ‘I’ am the only one that can end ‘I’. Writing the note to myself above did the trick.

VINEETO: Hi James,

It is not only the ‘guardian’, aka the social identity, but your whole ‘being’ (both social identity and the instinctual passions and their resultant feelings) which are “stopping” you.

Richard described it well in a message in 2002 too you, which Geoffrey told me he recommends as essential for reading and comprehending to anyone who wants his advice to becoming actually free –

RICHARD: Okay ... I will come at it from another direction then: the bottom line of ‘me’ is suffering (obviously there are times when ‘I’ feel happy, when ‘I’ feel glad, when ‘I’ feel cheerful and so on but whenever those moments pass ‘I’ inevitably revert to ‘my’ default setting).

So, essentially ‘I’ am suffering and, as ‘I’ am addicted to being ‘me’ and being ‘me’ is suffering, ‘I’ am addicted to suffering ... it is ‘my’ very nature. What you are (presumably) experiencing right now is ‘me’ as ‘I’ really am when all of the external causes of happiness, gladness, cheerfulness and so on are stripped away ... and of course ‘I’ want to ‘play some more now’ because ‘I’ do not like being ‘me’.

Yet, perversely, ‘I’ am addicted to being ‘me’ ... and it is this addiction which is why there is no peace on earth. (Richard, List B, James, 24 October 1999)

It requires diligent, and if needed experiential, attention to any feeling which might diminish your feeling good/feeling excellent, and thus would stand in the way as an objection to the ending of ‘you’. Again a reminder that ‘you’ cannot end ‘yourself'. What ‘you’ can do is give permission, *with your whole being*, to allow pure intent to have it happen.

This is not a mental/intellectual command you give yourself but both an existential (all of ‘you’) and joyous acquiescence to allow the universe to live you, irrevocably.

Deeply appreciating every step of the way is the clue that you are on the right track.

Cheers Vineeto

VINEETO: Hi James,

Definitely. You will need a reliable connection via the golden clew connected to your Pure Consciousness Experience and as such to pure intent in order not to end up in some strange Altered State of any description. For example: Hypomania/ Actuality-Mimicking ASC (Abditorium, Hypomania)

JAMES: Feeling good, enjoying and appreciating. Coming close to pure intent by remembering the purity of my last pce. Not quite there yet. It’s like a peacefulness that’s readily available just a step away from pure intent. I am quite sure that pure intent is attainable. 

VINEETO: Hi James,

Yes, this is the moment – the moment you have been waiting for, your number one aim in your life … the moment to all the pure intent to bring all of you on board and allow the magic to happen.
You can give the permission now, with your whole being, give permission to allow pure intent to draw you forth.

What a marvellous time we are living in.

Cheers Vineeto

October 20 2024

JAMES: Been experiencing increased enjoyment, appreciation and perfection. Still no pure intent yet. Not sure how to “give permission ‘with my whole being’ to allow pure intent to draw me forth.”

VINEETO: Hi James,

It’s great to hear that “enjoyment, appreciation and perfection” are increasing.

Can you rememorate your last PCE? That’s where you find pure intent. The memory of a pure consciousness experience is your guiding light – it shows you what is possible when the ‘self’ disappears. Only when you can tune into pure intent will you be able to give permission to draw you forth.

In the meantime, you continue to experience and increase “enjoyment, appreciation and perfection” as much as possible.

JAMES: What exactly does “with my whole being” mean?

VINEETO: It means that there is not a single objection “to step out of the real world into this actual world and leave ‘yourself’ behind where ‘you’ belong”.

Again, I ask you – what do you have to lose? You know with certainty that you will physically die. Why not give permission to “leave ‘yourself’ behind” before you physically die. Richard used to ask himself, what am I saving ‘myself’ for? There is nothing you can take with you when you die. You have literally nothing to lose but your affective identity and what you can gain is immense. As Richard put it –

[Richard]: “This is ‘my’ moment of glory; this is ‘my’ crowning achievement; this makes ‘my’ petty life all worthwhile; this is ‘my’ most noble sacrifice for ‘I’ am what ‘I’ hold most dear; this is ‘my’ legacy for all humankind; ‘my’ reward is to go blessedly into the oblivion ‘I’ have secretly craved all along.

‘My’ extinction made all this possible.

Regards, Richard.

P.S.: The key-word is: inevitability.” (Richard, List D, Rick, 3 December 2009)

Cheers Vineeto

October 20 2024

JAMES: Yes, I can remember my last PCE. I remember the purity of it which was stunning. It was so clear and so pure. I seem close to it right now.

[Vineeto]: “Only when you can tune into pure intent will you be able to give permission to draw you forth.”

What exactly do you mean by “draw you forth”?

I do see that what you mean that “with my whole being” means when there is not a single objection left to stepping out of the real world into the actual world.

It also makes sense that I have nothing to lose but my affective identity.

I am in a perfect place to allow this to happen. I have nothing to lose but my ‘self’. I see that all I have to do is give myself permission. This is absolutely doable.

I do see that it is inevitable now. Pure intent is inevitable.

VINEETO: Hi James,

Excellent.

“Pure intent drawing you forth” means you are so attracted by the sweetness and tenderness of pure intent that you can’t and don’t want to resist.

Enjoy.

Cheers Vineeto

October 23 2024

JAMES: Do you have to have a PCE to tap in to pure intent?

VINEETO: Hi James,

I found where Richard gave an answer to this very same question on you posed to him on 7 February 2012 -

RESPONDENT:

[Richard]: [...] that ‘over-arching benevolence and benignity’ [...] was also accessible at-a-distance (hence the thirty-day trial at that time), as a rather remarkable man on another continent has amply demonstrated, and has been described by him upon meeting in person as a ‘gentle energy’ and a ‘harmless energy’ which is ‘emanating all around (not directional, like a guru to a devotee, and not at all gross)’.

‘At a distance’. You can’t mean that India is ‘at a distance’ from the universe so what do you mean?

RICHARD: G’day No. 23, What I mean is exactly what I wrote in the email you isolated that above text from. Viz.:

[Richard]: ‘(...) that ‘over-arching benevolence and benignity’, which the feeling-being inhabiting this flesh-and-blood body all those years ago experienced and named ‘pure intent’, became directly accessible to some select associates during a specific situational setting called ‘The Second Convivium Gathering’, in late 2009/ early 2010, and was variously experienced by them as a ‘palpable sweetness’, for instance, and an ‘infinite tenderness’, for example, and has been more generally described as ‘being bathed in intimacy’. It was also accessible at-a-distance (hence the thirty-day trial at that time), as a rather remarkable man on another continent has amply demonstrated (...)’. (Richard, List D, No. 17, 4 February 2012).

My words ‘on another continent’ refer to different continent than the one on which the specific situational setting called ‘The Second Convivium Gathering’ took place in late 2009/ early 2010.

RESPONDENT: You make like the ‘over-arching benevolence and benignity’ is actually coming from *you* ...

RICHARD: I did not [quote] ‘make like’ [endquote] anything; what I wrote about, in that email you isolated that (now further above) text from, is precisely in accord with what those opening words of mine to No. 17 readily convey. Viz.:

[Richard]: ‘My response (above) was both in the context of your query as to whether a PCE is necessary for pure intent and your follow-up explanation to John about the last paragraph of ‘Addendum No. 7’ (that to be actually free from the human condition is to be that pure intent)’. (Richard, List D, No. 17, 6 February 2012).

And the operative words in the last paragraph of that ‘Addendum No. 7’ which No. 17 quoted in his follow-up explanation to No. 24 (Message No. 10xxx) are as follows. Viz.:

[quote]: ‘(...) to be actually free from the human condition is to be that pure intent ... as in, to be that benevolence and benignity *as a flesh-and-blood body only*’. [emphasis in original]. (Latest Announcement, Addendum 6).

RESPONDENT: ... which would mean that it *is* directional ...

RICHARD: First and foremost: what part of the words [quote] ‘emanating all around’ [endquote] is it that you derive the meaning that it is directional from?

Second, are you proposing that at 3:15 AM (IST) on the 4th of January, 2010, I paused in what I was doing and turned so as to zero in on ultra-precise map co-ordinates – and such precision is called for as there may very well still have been another person sleeping on the other side of the bed – and zapped that (otherwise) rather remarkable man, smack dead centre, with a liberating bolt of pure intent?

Lastly, in such a scenario as that in what way would this man thus be considered rather remarkable?

Ha ... this is all such fun, eh?

Regards, Richard. (Richard, List D, No. 23, 7 February 2012).

And to leave no doubt about the exact nature of pure intent -

[Richard]: Also, here is a hint for future reading: the word pure, in the phrase pure intent, indicates to a puzzling-it-out-reader that whatever it is which the word intent refers to one thing is for sure: it cannot be affective (else it be not pure). (Richard, List D Jonathan, 16 February 2014).

Cheers Vineeto